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03:03 pm
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the morning of, the bigger lights, the morning light, brighten 5/2
this is going to be so long omg D: i cant remember all this haha i have a really bad memory.
but okay so eventually we see abir from tmo get out of casey's car? and we're like dude wtfff. then jess came out of caseys car too so we were like wtf is going on/why arent they in the van. so yeah abir came over and said hi to us and we definitely talked to him for at least a half hour. he asked us who we were here to see and i said his band & tbl. callie was like "yeah i'm here for your band too." and he's like "reaaaally what band am i in?" and she was like "uhh... the morning of!" hahahaha it was funny. we told him all our names and he was like "i'll remember them by the end of the night" so i was like uh huh. i'm sure you will. but he remembered them by the next day even so i was like ohayyy. he started telling us this story about him at boozle last year and how there were these bitchy girls behind him that eventually got in front of him.. then started talking shit about him & his current girlfriend at the time, so he got really pissed and pushed them really hard (keep in mind that he's like 5'3) into these girls who come to their hometown shows all the time. lmfao and he was like "i was 16 at the time so i was all excited and i brought all my friends... but yeah so the only two people i recognize in all of bamboozle just happen to be them... so now every hometown show they come up to me and ask me if i remember when i did that. now i have the reputation of pushing little girls at bamboozle. not the best reputation to have." hahhahaha <3 callie and meghan ordered pizza so abir told callie to write property of the morning of on it so she tried, but apparently cannot spell property or morning so abir had to help her. then he randomly wrote onomotopoeia on it?! thennn callie had dr scholl's shoes so i was like "WHOA dr scholl's makes shoes?!" and everyone was laughing at me cause apparently they all knew that and i was like "i thought they just made the things you slide in your shoe." so abir backed me up and was like "yeah me too. my mom always tried to make me buy those to add an inch or two but i was always just like 'its not worth it'" molly asked him how tall he was so he said 5'3 or 5'4 and molly got excited cause she thought maybe she was taller than him and he's like "yeah but i'm a dude so when i was younger i kept hoping for a growth spurt but never got one" haha then later he was like "you just turn around and see members of the morning of climbing the fence... dude justin better not rip that hoodie, that's my hoodie." i thought it'd be really funny if a train came by because uhh if you know justin he'd probably be scared shitless.
so it was around door-time and we were all lined up at the door but abir decided to come outside and talk to us more. he was telling us how he's always freezing but justin is always hot so he always has the ac on... then he started telling us how he was cold so i was like "dude go inside" he's like "no i'd rather be out here talking to you!" i love him pretty much. so then we started talking about how willcall usually gets in first and since we were here first we should get in first... so meghan asked abir to steal wristbands for us and we'd pay him for them, just so we can have them on and not have to wait. then we started talking about ways to abbreviate when we sign in. so LMFAO he goes inside and we see him talking to someone, and the sign in sheet was on the desk so he's slowly sliding it off and looking at us and laughing hahahahahah then he put it back... then slooowly slid it off again and started laughing again. so he sticks his head outside and is like "guys... one thing i forgot to mention... i'm really bad at stealing things. seriously i cant even steal a cookie out of a cookie jar." hahaha then he was like "i can block the line... i'm not very big but i can do it anyway" and meghan's like "YEAH THE RIGHT LINE" so we go inside and i'm running toward the stage and i look to my right and there is abir. waiting. he's like "IM HERE SAVING YOUR SPOT" becuase meghan was talking about how she wanted the right side. and i was like "hahahhahahaha youre amazing" so meghan & everyone else came inside and we were all just like "can we just give you a hug?!" so we gave him a hug and he stayed there for a couple minutes then left.
the bigger lights came on, it was awesome. uhh they skipped bottom on the setlist so we were like JOHN WHY'D YOU SKIP IT :( and they ran out of time and stuff so we were bummed. then we shot the moon was on. i felt so freaking bad because someone said they saw him in february so jonathan was like "awesome! that's twice you've seen us. hopefully you know our words better this time" and i felt horrible because he's so sweet but his band sucks :|
then -drumroll please- the morning of was on! sup they were supposed to come to trackside in JULY but james decided to be lame and quit the band? anyway casey put holes in the water bottle caps so they dont have to waste time opening the cap... yeah i didnt think it was that awesome but jess did. it was so funny, her back was turned to us and i saw her show justin the bottle and she was like "LOOK JUSTIN THERE'S A HOLE IN IT" lmfao she thought it was the most amazing thing ever. justin was just laughing. but uh oh. my. god. they are honestly more amazing live than i ever thought. if you listen to them they dont sound too high-energy live but maaan they were amazing. abir thought it was funny to use my head as an armrest, thanks bro! then he pretty much laid down on me and dom during a song?! yeah he's a retard <333 and justin thinks it's cool to randomly push me out of the way and have a little danceparty next to me on the floor. i pretty much almost got hit with his head every like 20 seconds. so yeah i was singing my heart out pretty much :) it was so fun though seriously. most fun i've had during a set in awhile.
then brighten was on and alex kept touching dom's hair hahaha. she freaked out. she was having a migraine so we left the set and hung inside a little. we saw harrison from tml and i was like "HARRISON!" and he turned and smiled so fucking huge and was like "HEY GUYS!! how are you?!" and i was like "greaaat you?" and he was like "awesome! well listen i'm so glad you guys made it out again but i gotta go. we'll talk later!" so i turned to dom and my jaw just dropped. i was like UH did fucking harrison just remember me from december?!!? and her from october?!?!?
yeah so then when we were chilling outside on the bench i saw andymaccc so i called him and he turned and was like "HEYYY!" he held his arms out like to give me a hug so i got up and hugged him. i was like "uh dude you guys havent been to trackside since JULY. i miss you guys coming here all the time" and he was like "yeah i know it's been way too long." then he had to go etc etc.
we saw justin wiley! and honestly i've loved that boy since he joined the band in august so i called him over and we talked a little. told him we were coming to boozle and had the funniest conversation evereverever. haha he was like "so who else are you seeing at bamboozle besides us?!" i told him farewell & htl but i couldnt remember anyone else :| so he was like "are you seeing the rocket summer?" i said no. he was like "how bout jimmy eat world?" nope. "paramore?!" nopeee. "really? i thought you'd see them because everyone thinks hayley williams is god." fucking owneddd "are you seeing cute is what we aim for? you got to see cute is what we aim for" i made an ew face and said no so his jaw dropped and he was like "NO?!! how bout jack's mannequin?" we said no again lmfao. so jess wandered over and he was like "hey jess they're coming to bamboozle" she was like "REALLY??!?!? ARE YOU COMING TO SEE US!?" and we said yeah. so justin's like "yeah want to hear who they're not seeing? they're not seeing the rocket summer. they're not seeing cute is what we aim for. they're not seeing--" i cut him off and was like "shut up justin" he looked at me and smirked and was like "they're not seeing jimmy eat world. they're not seeing jack's mannequin. they're not seeing paramore." thennn i was like "so justin i hear you like hannah montana" and he was like "yes! not in a creepy way though. i just love the tv show." so i was like "uh huh. i'm sure." he was like "seriously i love the tv show" so i was like "okay i believe you" hahaha he knew i didnt and he was like "i do not like 15 year old hannah montana. the show is just really awesome." so lmfao i finally was like "did you know her brother in that show is actually like 35?" and he was like "JACKSON?!?!! NOOO" and i was like "haha yep" so he was like "no he cant be" and i was like "yeah justin he is" and he's like "nooo where'd you hear that?!" and i told him it was all over the internet, etc. he was like "dude if he's 35 then i'm... 33" so i was like "oh really?" apparently he thought i thought he was really 33 so he was like "nah i'm just kidding i'm not 33 i'm 20" so i was like uh dude i know :|
the bigger lights were MIA in their van for over an hour. so i was prettttty pissed.
we came back inside a little later and just hung out inside with meghan and callie. then abir came over and like put his arms around meghan and callie & was like "hey guys!" we talked to him some more and he told us if we needed water at bamboozle to come find him because he felt bad making us spend five dollars on water. ahhaha so we were like okay. callie wanted a shirt but she only had 5 dollars so abir told her to buy a shirt anyway?! aha he was like "just buy our merch guy a pretzel tomorrow and we'll call it even" then molly wanted a shirt but she only had 10 dollars and the shirt was 15, so abir was like "just buy it! please!" she was like "dude i'd be ripping you off" he was like "do you know how much it takes to make a shirt? like 5 or 6 dollars. so we're still making profit." she kept saying no and he was like "i'd rather you buy the shirt for 10 then not buy it at all. plus i think tomorrow we're selling shirts for 10 anyway" hahah so they got into a little arguement about that. then eventually their merch guy was like motioning to molly to come over. it was the funniest thing ever, you had to be there. so she bought a bag because the bag was already ten dollars. hahahah.
so we talked to abir some more then jess wandered over. she likes to do that a lot. justin came over too and we all talked a little. then he started singing ftsk like always so i sang with him and he like "yeaaah! that song gets stuck in my head all the time" and i was like yeah i can tell. haha. sing it loud came on and jess was like "do you guys like sing it loud?!" and i told her yeah so we were all singing to them.
i saw mikey! and pictures with him are so funny haha so i got one with him and then at the last second i just burst out laughing so now i look like a retard in my picture with him.
then me meghan callie and molly all went outside and sat on the bench. abir came over to us AGAIN and was like "ok guys now that there's only a group of four of you... let's do the name thing again." even though dom left he randomly said her name and we were like yeah she left. but so after he did our names we were like "youre not going to remember that later" and he was like "no i will! here, watch, i'll go get a granola bar and then i'll come back and i'll still remember... do you guys want a granola bar?" so we said no but callie didnt hear him so she was like WHAT and he was like "do you want a granola bar?" and she was like "wait do i what" and we were like "CALLIE. DO YOU WANT A GRANOLA BAR." and she was like "oh no thank you!" hahahah funniest thing ever. so then he came back... or something... i dont really remember aha but he left again to go get some pizza and came back legit like 2 minutes later so we were like "uh we thought you going to get pizza?" and he was like "i had a slice" and i we were all like "wow that was quick" that tiny boy eats faaaast. then we had him convince meghan to go to bamboozle because he's good at persuading people to do things. so he convinced her! haha
so me and molly went inside and talked to dan for a little. molly told him she was sad that he was alone in the corner during the whole set so i told him he should go invade j.k's side. haha then he started saying how shy he was and i was like uhh youre def not shy but okay. tml was playing safe bet so emilio was standing on a chair or something and getting ALL into it and dancing it was so funny. me molly and dan were exchanging glances. then we talked to j.k for a couple of minutes just because he looked pretty bored. then he left and the morning light was still on so i was singing and i turned around and topher was singing too and he looked at me and smiled and i was like -dead- LMFAO then emilio was standing on the chair still and singing and like, putting his hands around topher's head but topher didnt know? it sounds not funny at all but seriously it was SO FUNNY. i was trying so hard not to laugh because topher would have been like wtf it was so funny.
so yeah we waited to say goodbye to abir before we left and chris came up to us and tried to get us to buy the cd etc etc. we talked to him for a little and then he left and rob came over and did the same thing. then he left and we were on our way out when meghan's flipflop breaks right next to abir :| she almost like fell over and used him as her crutch. it was so ironic because we were just going to leave without saying goodbye AND in the beginning of the show he was talking to us how his girlfriend's flipflop broke and it never happened to any of us before. hahaha so we all wound up saying goodbye to him so i was happy.
i probably left stuff out, but yeah go to myspace.com/themorningofrock just because :)
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12:16 pm
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the bigger lights 4.12.08
so we got there at like 430 and see the boys playing basketball :| no one else was there so we felt awkward and left to the walgreens parking lot. hahahha so when we go back, they were just kinda chilling and there were a couple other girls there. we get in line and jk waves to us & we wave back. topher turns around and is like "OH HEY it's you guys!" then jk came over & gave us hugs. topher started brushing his teeth hahahaha. then we were sitting there and we look in the van and john has his shirt off lmfao so i'm like NEVER EVER EVER NEEDED TO SEE THAT. NEVER IN MY LIFE.
then they started playing football with a nerf ball that made that noise. we kept hoping casey would get hit in the head but he never did. tbl's van got hit like 4 times and jk was sleeping in it so he was kinda startled. hahha everytime casey hit it mikey would be like "THAT IS NOW THE FOURTH TIME." mikey cannot catch a ball for his life. they did that for like an hour. jk was eating honey wheat pretzels and me & molly wanted them :|
then i gave dan his vitamin water & he was like "oh yeaaah this is the kind i wanted! thank you so much!" & i got a hug. then he was talking about how they should get a sponsorship from vitamin water because they drink like a case a day. then i found out vitamin water is sold in cases, which i didnt know haha. then i asked him to call dom & he did and then just started walking away with my phone and i was like uhhh :| then he passed it around to the whole band & mikey was like WHO'S PHONE IS THIS?! and i went over and got it and hung up on her. tbl likes to change shirts a lot. john locked dan in the van so he could change his shirt.
we went inside & saw the bigger lights just kind of standing in front of the stage..? we felt awkward and didnt want to stand in front of them, so we awkwardly stood kind of next to/behind them?! anyway once they left we kind of inched our way up to the stage. behind us these two girls were talking to topher & john, and molly says to me (really loudly) "mikey's a monkey!" and i'm kind of laughing and then she turns around and topher was just looking at her hahahaha and then she turns back around but i was still looking at topher, so he looked up at me and gave me this smirk hahaha it was the funniest/most awkward moment of my life. mikey put some random ass song that was so freaking weird on and he yelled to someone "THIS IS FOR YOU" and then he said, quieter, "i dont even know what the hell this song is" and ran off stage. lmfao that kid is so crazy i love it so much. cameron from a sight for sore eyes came on and aaah he's so cute :) i forgot about asfse for quite a few months actually, but i'm going to start listening to them again. dan was helping mfh set up and he was like "actually this is the quietest crowd ever" so i was like "awwwh!" and then he laughed so me & molly decided that we were going to legit scream during tbl's set. this girl that was standing next to us was like "how do you know that guy.. i forgot his name.. he's from the bigger lights and he has glasses" and i was like "jk? we dont really know him, he just recognizes us." and she was like "oh just from shows and stuff?" and i was like "yeeep" it was mad awkward but pretty funny at the same time. then when tbl were setting up, mikey put on the morning light so i was screaming the lyrics so loud :| but yeah the set was amazing. goldmine valentine is an incredible song, i'm so insanely stoked to hear the recorded version. it was mad awkward though because the only person actually on the stage was mikey. aka the rest of the boys were standing on the floor. but oh. my. god. at the end of their set the screaming i heard was earpiercing. like so loud & earpiercing that i stopped hearing actual screams and just heard noise. i have never heard a crowd scream that loud for the bigger lights & i didnt think i'd hear it for a few more months, buttt obviously i was wrong :|
after tbl's set we waited a little because of courseee the boys were talking to people, which i hated because i am a selfish human being. in the meantime i decided to put money in tbl's tip jar and emilio told me he loved me like three times & i was like creeeeepster but i told him i loved him back anyways. so then i was chilling & talking to molly and all of a sudden, being the legitimate creep that he is, he was talking to the guy from mfh that was doing merch (the one that for whatever reason reminded me of john) and he was like pointing at me!? and i was like i hate you so much :| because it was mad awkward.
we finally saw topher not talking to someone for like .2 seconds so we went over before some random chick could hahhah and said hi. they had posters on their merch table suddenly?! and i was like "whoa you guys have posters now" and he was like "yeah well we got them when we got the ep i just dont know if we ever put them out" ahaha so i was like no you def never put them out :| then i asked him why they had so many sharpies and he said people were stealing them so i was like yo wtf that's lame. molly asked him why the show was changed from trackside to the depot, and he said it was because britton booked the show & is now on tour with sing it loud so something happened because he wasnt there. i dunno something weird like that. the mar 1st show got cancelled because someone in the hint had a family member die & tbl didnt want to be the only band playing. thennn he started telling us how he was hungry so i told him to get some food because there's kind of a built-in 'restaurant' in the venue. he was like "i cant, i dont eat that stuff" so i was like "oh right you boycott fastfood" and he pointed at me, smiled, and was like "exactly!" molly asked him if subway was fastfood and he said it kind of was but he'd eat it anyway, burger king mcdonalds & taco bell he wont eat. there were girls lurking in on our conversation during the entire time hahaha i was like sorrrrry we're not going away just because you think he's hot. we talked a little more & then john came wandering over and said hi :) he was like "well thank you guys so much for coming out AGAIN." we said of course, etc etc. somehow, i really wish i remembered how, we started talking about him singing for the band?! hahaha and then he was like "well i used to do backing vocals for another band but my voice would just blow out all the time so in this band i decided that i should just play guitar. this way if i lose my voice it doesnt matter because my fingers still work." hahaha then he told us they went over to trackside and put up a sign. he was like "yeah the venues got switched last minute so that was crazy... we actually went to trackside before we came here and put up a big sign that was like 'go to the depot, we have no idea where it is but apparently it's ten minutes away so go there!' we talked for a couple more minutes and then i guess girls were getting angry at us? again? so they kind of interrupted our conversation and wanted pictures with him so he said he'd see us later.
then we went over to jk and he gave us hugs and thanked us for always coming to see them. we said of course etc, etc. we talked about something hahaha then he like put his hand on my shoulder and was like "i gotta go but thank you so much for coming out again!" we really only talked to him for a minute so i was sad :|
we saw dan and talked for a minute but i dont even remember what we talked about. then we talked to him again a few minutes later and i was like "hm i kind of want to sign this wall but i dunno i'd feel weird" and he handed me a sharpie and he's like "do ittt!" so i took it and i had no idea what to write so i decided to be a good friend and write their myspace link on it multiple times. lollll i went to write it on this door that was pretty much shut, and all of a sudden i hear molly laughing and i feel someone creepin behind me :| so i turn around and see casey with like, this smirk on his face, and then he walks so he's standing next to me and kind of tries to pull the door open? and i'm like "uh do you need to get in here?" and he's like "yeah" so i stepped away from the door and he went inside so i was like wtf why didnt you just say that instead of standing there like the creep you are. hahaha then molly's like "dude casey needs to stop acting like he has no idea who we are. he totally knows us. he should just stop pretending." and i of course agreed. then i went to look for more space to promote our boys and molly started talking to mikey about how he can never make a serious/normal face. then i hear silence for a few seconds and molly's like "she's writing your myspace link all over the place" and i turned around after i was done and i said to him "yeah i just wish there was a big open space so i could write it reallllly big" hahah then he grabbed the sharpie out of my hand and wrote on the wall (write under where i just wrote their myspace link) 'BIG OPEN SPACE' and i was like "wow you just killed it. plus that's definitely not a big open space"
then i think we went to talk to dan again?! i dunno i cant remember :/ he saw their myspace link on the wall and was like "whoa that's awesome! who did that" and i was like "i diddd. i did it like five other places too" and he's like "that is so awesome thank you" then he was packing up some wire thing and was like "i have no idea who's this is" and i was like "well how are you supposed to figure it out" he's like "well it kind of sucks because us and mfh use the same kind of equipment... plus they mark their stuff with the same blue tape that we do. we didnt know they'd use the same tape as us" ahaha so then i was like "so bringing you different colored tape next time would be pretty pointless since you wont be on tour with them anymore" and he's like "yeah cause they're the only band that uses that tape" then he was like wrapping up the wire and he was like "we need to get road people" and i was like "whattt are those" and he's like "road people? they basically do what i'm doing now so we dont have to. they pack stuff up." and i told him how annoying it must be to do that every night & he said it was pretty annoying but he doesnt mind it too much. then i told him they'd get road people one day and molly said that he could put a sign up by the merch table hahaha. then dan was like "yeah it'll be like 'looking for road people. absolutely no pay. let us know if youre interested'" and i was like "i actually would totally do that if i didnt have school" and he was like "i can train you if you want" and i was like "to be a road person?" hahah and he's like "yeah i'll train you to be the best road person out there" and i was like "YESSS no college for me" hahaha <3
then casey was talking to a girl i will not mention by name :| and molly was like "oh look casey is talking to ____" and i was like "oh snap bobby's going to be jealous. controversy!" then me & molly simultaneously were like "OHHHH" really loud apparently?! so dan was walking by wrapping a wire and just deadstopped and looked at us. lmfao so we were laughing and i was like "SHUT UP DAN" & he's like "i didnt say anything!" and i was like "yeah but your face does!" so then he was like "i dont want to know. i really dont" hahahah then i said "yeah that's probably best." thennn he said "no but seriously what were you guys-- nah i'm kidding i really dont want to know" hahah so we were like "okay that works!" i love that boy <3
so we chilled a little more & then called my mom because pretty much everyone had left except for girls that were like, legit really good friends with the boys so we felt awkwarddd! molly wanted to wait outside so i obv went with her. we were just kind of walking and from behind us we hear dan say to us "ARE YOU GUYS LEAVING?" so we turn around and we're like "nopeee we're just waiting." and so then (this is molly's favorite part of the night) he was like "oh fun. well make sure you say bye before you leave, okay?!" & then when we said okay we will he started lighting up a cig :| and went over to talk to mikey and i was like alrighty then :| then my mom came like ten minutes later so we went over to say goodbye to dan. we got hugs and he was like "thanks for the vitamin water! that made my day" and he thanked us for coming & said he'd see us next time.
all in all, not only was this the best bigger lights show, but it was probably the best show ever.
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01:32 pm
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the bigger lights, danger:radio, the maine, powerspace
- alec from powerspace is a creep and kneeled to sing to me & then touch my face
- tbl group picture took legit 10 minutes
- mikey: topher's mr popular over there. me: you jealous? mikey: nah not really.
- mikey coming onstage in between sets looking for a piece to his drumset that broke off, then when we're talking to dan & john he comes up behind us & holds it up and is like "I FOUND IT!"
- dan: i have pinky erectile disfunction
- meghan: okay i made up a call for when we need you. dan: if you're in trouble why would you call us? we're no one. we're just the bigger lights. me: yeah i dont feel very confident that you guys would help me if i was in trouble. dan: exactly, we probably wouldnt be very helpful
- jk looking at me & dom for an extra couple of seconds when he went inside
- telling john to make sure topher doesnt eat all the stuff meghan brought for them
- garrett: tell pat to do the funny thing. us: pat do the funny thing. pat: i dont have a funny thing! garrett: yeah the thing you did the other night. do it. pat: i didnt do anything the other night. us: come on pattt. pat: i dont have a funny thing! -starts walking away- garrett: guys make him do the funny thing. me: us?! why dont you?! garrett: okay say to him 'if you care about us at all you'll do the funny thing' us: pat if you care about us at all you'll do the funny thing -pat keeps walking- pat hates usss. pat: no i dont i just dont have a funny thing!
- andrew de torres singing i want to love you with me & molly
- topher's face when the secret handshake came on & him cocking his head to the side like a dog lmfao
- topher dancing to the maine's intro... or attempting to
- jk attempting to dance to some ghetto song, me telling him never to do that ever again in his life ever, him telling me he never would
- john: yeah our set got bumped up like an hour, so i'm sitting there and i had just eaten two sandwiches because i was really hungry, and topher comes running in and is like 'we're on in five minutes' and i was like WHAT! so y'know during like the third song my stomach started not feeling so great so i was like 'oh god... better not move around too much'
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09:36 am
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a rocket to the moon, sing it loud, houston calls, the higher, sherwood
writing these is really annoying soo basically i'm just doing bullets!
- meghan imitating wil from farewell by dancing like a stripper, ryan walking by and pointing at her shaking his finger saying "no no no" from inside
- meghan writing ryan an apology letter on a napkin
- santino playing acoustic & being bummed about it
- santino messing up during our song
- nate coming up to us asking if we wanted their ep then giving us a group hug because we all already had it
- finding out the morning light was coming back with sing it loud on may 2 :)
- taking a picture with ryan and immediately after he takes like five pictures because girls thought he was in a band..
- i see some random guy carrying a big box - "do you want me to open the door for you..?" "YES that'd be great. you're a lifesaver" apparently he's in the higher?
- "oh you're that stephanie girl" "uh :|"
- meghan writing another apology letter to ryan. me asking ryan if he thinks it's weird she's writing him these. him shrugging as a response
- meghan having everyone sign her failed math test
- courtney's bff coming up to me and telling me she loved my valencia hoodie and started a conversation about it. awkward much?
- feeling awkwarddd when we were the first ones there
- me saying "i think my english teacher died" and shane martin walking by giving me a strange look hahahahah
- group hugs!
- VINNY FROM WE SHOT THE MOON :)
- "we heart you" -makes heart shape with his hands-
- meghan making vinny a tip jar out of a roll of duct tape they had
- vinny being the sweetest kid ever and me loving him intensely now
- meghan hiding from ryan because she said she was leaving but she came back and didnt want him to think she was stalking him
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09:55 am
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the bigger lights @ columbia - feb 16
this was BY FAR... THE MOST awkward show i have ever ever ever been to in my life. and the boys will tell you the same, because they were telling us all night.. this probably will all be out of order just fyi because i cant remember everything D:
k so we get there and we're chillin and see dan outside but we felt awkward so we didnt say anything. but HE CUT HIS HAIR! and i was super happy because he looks 39532985 times better.
so we have a shitload of trouble getting inside. people are like all dressed up super fucking weird so me and dom are like WHAT THE HELL MAN. finally [after much chaos] we get in and see mikey! so we go over to him and he gives me a hug and we talked for a few minutes.. i dont even know what we talked about. the whole night is kind of like mushed together. then we see dan kind of like chilling alone so we went over to him and talked to him for a little. he was telling us how awkward the show is ahaha so i was like "yeaaah its pretty awkward" he was saying how annoying it was that the screen was offcentered and i was like MY GOD I KNOW ITS SO ANNOYING. but then he's like "yeah i'm not even ocd though, it's just annoying me now" then i kind of noticed they got a tip jar so i was like "SO YOU GOT A TIP JAR!" and he's like "yes we did! mikey made it this week.. but currently i think the only thing in there is some change i put in there" ahahaha <3 i was like "i'm putting stuff in there when i buy merch, dont worry!" he's like AWESOME.
so john comes over and is like "OH HEY! YOU MADE IT!" and i was like "uh. yes i did!" and he's like "that's so awesome they put you on guestlist... wait that is you that i was commenting a few days ago right?" i was like "haha yup" but inside i was dying. then he's like "i dont really understand why they closed this to the public.. there's no one here." i was like "welllll when you guys start playing people will come in because youre just that amazing." and he was like "that'd be awesome!" their set was pushed back a half hour because they were waiting for people to come or something. his sister had friends that were trying to get in and security wouldnt let them :| i was like "aw i feel so bad now" haha then i told john how proud i was that they got a tip jar. he's like "yeah! mikey made it this week out of.. something" i was like "i'm so proud of you. seriously."
talked to dan a little more and mikey wandered over so we were talking to both him & dan and LMFAO a whole mob of people start coming in and walking down the stairs. one girl/guy [i dont really know] had a whip so mikey's like "HEY SHE HAS A WHIP! i want to get whipped! come here!" and i was like trying to contain my laughter but i was dying. then five seconds later mikey's like "wait.. where did all those people just go.. they totally came in and then left" i was like uhh maybe they went through one of the doors? :|
then me & dom were just kind of hanging out [uh yeah we hung out by the condoms all fucking night :|] and we saw mikey like skipping across the room?!?! and i was like ahahahaha you are such a fag.
we talked to mikey again and i was like "DUDE. YOU MADE A TIP JAR. I AM SO PROUD." and he's like "yeaaah i did!" and i was like "haha what did you make it out of?" he said a slim jim jar and i told him i never had those. so he's like "they. are. so. gross. i had to eat them" i was like "why O_o" he's like "so i could use the jar!" so i was kind of wondering why he didnt just throw them out?! :| but he's semiretarded. we talked a little more then he left.
okay so then some fucking ugly ass creep decides to try and hit on me?! he's like "are you from columbia" i'm like no. and he's like "where are you from" and i'm like "uh connecticut" and then he like puts his arm around me and is like "are ct girls easy?" and i'm like :| no. and he's like "youre an exception to that though right?" and i'm like "NOT REALLY. can you please get away from me now?" and i like pushed him off me. then he's like "youre so mean. fine i'll go talk to the guys.. i like boys better" and i was like what. the. fuck. i was seriously so creeped out. okay so the whole time this guy is hitting on me, i'm glancing over at mikey and he's sitting there laughing hysterically. then mikey walks by and points at me and starts laughing/mocking me and i'm like SHUT UP. and he's like "hahahaha dont worry he did it to me too" and i was like :| oh. so mikey's like sitting across the room alone drumming on something and i'm like wow youre cool. so right after that jk comes running over and is like "OKAY if that guy comes over to you again just come find me. i'll protect you." inside i was like melting ahahahaha so i was like "alright!" then he was like "that guy is stressing me out. like he's so creepy. he wont go away" and i was like "ahaha aw just be like 'uh yeah i gotta go..' and walk away" then we talked for a few more minutes and jk's like "okay well i gotta go play the set now.. STAY SAFE!" and i was like "we will" i love that kid so fucking much :) then a minute later john walked by us and said in this british accent "WE'RE GOING TO PLAY SOME MUSIC!" i was like ahahahahhahahaah you do that.
so mikey is like throwing his drumsticks on the floor or something and he kept yelling out DAMNIT or something haha that kid is so weird man i cant even take it sometimes. but yeah so they were all like stretching and getting ready for their set. they played all seven songs they have, i'm not too sure of the order but i'll try anyway :| bottom, chemicals, time, lose ourselves, romance, revved, thieves. it was something like that. but yeah so like every 10 seconds topher would look at us and smile a huge smile and i'd be like -giggles- ahhaha i get teenie-ish over his smile, its so cute. john was kind of in my view of mikey so i couldnt make funny faces at him and mess up his concentration again. but dom said mikey was making faces at her hahaha. during the one time john looked up i made a face at him and he made one back. ahaha uh but yeah then topher decided that he was going to inform everyone that we knew the words?! since me and dominique were the only two there that knew the songs, during revved he was like "okay this is usually the part where everyone sings along, but these two girls are the only ones that know the words" and he points to us for like a minute and says some more stuff about us so EVERYONE was looking at us and the girls next to me [who, remember, are in college] are like giving me dirty looks and i wanted to punch them in the face. so yeah i had a love/hate relationship with topher during the rest of their set. it was so embarassing omg D: i do not like attention.
then DIRECTLY after their set [while they were getting their stuff off stage] the introducer dude decided to come on stage and bag on them?! i get pretty defensive for that time. he was like "everyone give it up for the bigger lights! the singer has the same haircut as alex whatever" and topher's like "i dont know who that is -shrugs-" and the guy's like "oh she's right there" and points to a GIRL. and topher's like "oh. it's a girl. awesome." he felt so awkward so i kind of wanted to punch this guy in the face too because he wasnt funny. THEN since this guy thinks he's fucking dane cook or something he's like "i think you guys should take a look at all the bands tonight and see who has the tightest jeans. where do they get those things?! the gap?!" soo by this point i was like ready to punch this guy in the face :| john like laughed an awkward laugh and topher just looked at us and we were all like :|
so me and dominique were kind of waiting by merch for da boyz anddd topher came up to us and was like "hey! thank you guys for singing" and we were all of course, etc etc. he was like "i saw you guys knew time stops breathing.. that's awesome" so yeah we talked to him for a little then he said he needed to finish packing up. so me & dominique were kind of in everyone's way haha i felt so bad. i told dom we should've asked the boys if they needed help packing up but she was like NO THAT'D BE SO AWKWARD. so i'm like :| k. haha at one point mikey brought the drums over and kind of hit into the condoms/info packets and a bunch of them fell so he was like "i knew i would do that" and lmfaooo dan's like "OH HEY SAFE SEX ON THE FLOOR!" ahahahah then mikey didnt know where to put the drums so he was like "uh. i guess i'll just put it here.." then jk came up to us again and was like "so is this the most awkward show you've ever been to?" and i was like "yeaaah just a little" hahaha then he's like "well i'm glad we could provide that experience for you" so i was all "but you guys made it all better!" haha so jk was like "yeah well we try to stay as normal as possible" then my dad called and totally fucked up our amazing conversation :|
soo we eventually bought merch and i bought the chemicals shirt so jk is like "this is new since the last time we saw you. we didnt have this when we saw you last right?" i was like -has minifreakout inside- "yeah its new!" then i gave him five dollars and was like "can you put this in the tip jar because john is kind of standing right in front of it" so jk's like "man you realllllly wanted that tip jar didnt you?" and i was like iloveyou "ahah yeah i really did" and he was like "well we appreciate it so so so much seriously" then dom bought a shirt and she hadnt paid him yet and he took LEGIT five minutes to write down the two shirts that he sold just then and the sizes and stuff for the inventory. when he finally was doine he's like "OKAY i'm sorry that took forever." but yeah then dom tried to have him keep the 10 dollar change and he's like "no. i seriously wont take that it's way too much." and she's like "its ten dollars. just keep it" and he's like "no its too much take it back" so she's like "fine!" so she takes it back and starts digging in her bag and i'm like "yeah shes looking for her five dollar bill to give you" so she gives it to him and he's like "okay that i can handle" hahaa so we got hugs and he told us thanks for coming and we left... saw dan sitting in the lobby alone across from my parents?!?!? so i was like HI DAN. he was eating a bag of chips and apparently that was his dinner. so yeah talked to him for a minute or two then left.
i love my boys so much & i'm currently sitting here hating life because it's now february 18th and they are in new york city RIGHT FUCKING NOW and i am not there. so i'm pretty much dying knowing i'm not with them hahaha but i'll get over it soon enough :)
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05:37 pm
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remember that time when... 2008!
i'm starting this now because i'll forget all this shit in almost a year
- "GOT TIP JAR?!"
- mikey gave out like 7 drumsticks?
- i felt like an idiot because i realized that people are only white on my camera and not on my computer?!
- awkward conversations with topher during hp?
- playing green glass door with meghan, theresa, & our new bfflz?
- CRACK BUDDIES!
- almost passing out during wtk?
- waiting from 7:45 am to 6 pm at trackside?
- casey getting locked out of the venue 298389359 times?
- deleon being a creep?
- peace love and biscuits?
- "steph thinks jk's easy!" "WTF I DIDNT MEAN IT LIKE THAT"
- melissa cantsayherlastnamebecausegkarthwantstoprotecther?!
- meghan's fortune teller..
- konrad being absent for 2 and a half weeks directly after report cards/righttt before vacation to avoid everyone?! :|
- watching supersize me in health..
- "run casey run, dont ever look back... the tourbus will stop if you give it the chance"
- "story of the year john?" "yeah dude i'm rockin out up here" "such a queer"
- basically everything about the streetlights chat on 2/6?!
- "john lives in the 70s" "okay beatles boy"
- "mikey mixes soda"
- "note that kendall looks way better after john than paul does"
- "i'm assuming your daughter is a friend/sibling of one of the band members?"
- nick santino got raped at callie's sweet 16?
- we danced with santino?
- casey being punched during santino's set?
- britton jesse and casey in general at callies sweet 16?
- iflurtz survey results :|
- "do you guys know who marcus _ _ _ _ _ _ _ is?"
"yeah he just walked in that room.. he's wearing a white shirt & has alacrosse stick."
*kathleen creepishly looking in the room* "I DONT SEE HIM"
"oh my god. KAREEM GO GET MARCUS"
"MARCUS! come here"
*marcus peeking his head out the door*
"what do you think of that girl right there?"
*kathleen running to hide in the corner*
"KATHLEEN COME HEREEEE"
*marcus confused*
"NO."
"SHE'S KIND OF HIDING IN THE CORNER NOW"
- everyone got matt damon on their fckn survey results except me :|||||||||||||||
- "i'll protect you"
- "DUDE SHE HAS A WHIP! I WANT TO GET WHIPPED!"
- meghan always coloring/collaging every time she comes to my house!?
- meghan being indecisive at blockbuster about candy?
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07:31 pm
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remember that time when.... 2007!
- bobby walked away from me & dom when we told him we were 14?
- me & bree were being stalked by brendan's burberry scarf?
- i was front row for atl acoustic tour at trackside?
- acoustic tour turned into a strip party?
- me & kirstyn complained about how bored we were during feb/april/summer break?
- zack merrick had herpes?
- we couldnt go see t.r.y because it hailed and my mom wouldnt take us?
- i made that video when i got riot! making fun of teenies by saying how hot josh was?
- i stayed up until 4am by myself watching little miss sunshine and the tbs dvd on my ipod?
- we watched gaskarth hxc dance during the consequence?
- callie had to pee so bad that she walked all the way to the gas station?
- the singer of medicated kisses put her hand my head and asked if i was okay?
- the singer of 5 star fallout came into the crowd and gave meghan a hug during the set?
- i found out wentz was in a porno?
- i went insane at boozle trying to find chris?
- i got a comment from tml on myspace and flipped out? :|
- me, danica & meghan from mass talked on the phone for an hour and meghan forgot what an ice cream parlor was called even though she just said it?
- me & danica talked on the phone for like a half hour and i made fun of her canadian accent?
- me & tiffany talked on the phone for 2 1/2 hours?! [2006!]
- i randomly met jo at tourzilla in nyc?
- i wore cleats to the first day of soccer even though we were apparently supposed to wear sneakers?
- "FILTHY HYPOCRITE!" -nicole
- me & nicole talking about how much we hate janese at like every practice?
- going insane trying to get in touch with brendan to find out wtf he wanted for christmas?
- finally having brendan email me but not tell me what he wanted?!
- NANO? POLO?!
- finding out bq's name and dying laughing?
- calling wiley popcorn boy for the longest time before we knew his name?
- at 6/23 tml we were the first ones there so dom felt awk and wanted to go?
- and then when we got out that stray dog ran over to us like always?
- finally caving in and getting a facebook?
- being teenies with molly on the skyrise at lake compounce?
- molly's boyf on the skyrise at lake compounce?!
- wentz breaking his ankle?
- post-lake compounce at ruby tuesdays [or friday's idr] WITHOUT dom?
- feeling awk when i walked into the hibachi place and seeing jessica and kimmie? :|
- zack was a woman abuser?
- john o'callaghan sold me a two dollar bag?
- everyone freaking out about the bees at lake compounce?
- going on the skyrise after a water ride and getting the seats fucking soaked for the next peson that wanted to go on it?
- matty flyz stalking d and commenting her picture of them?
- vacation at the jersey shore and going to minigolf like five times and seeing three movies because it rained the entire time?
- freaking out at the jersey shore because atl released a new song [sfuts] that i couldnt hear?!
- THE LIBRARY AT THE JERSEY SHORE?
- planning to have a streetfight with the teams being gaskarth & ameara and me & merrick with theresa taping?
- planning to have a snowball fight/water fight with valencia with bree?
- ameara breaking her face?
- meeting ridaw like four times and being the happiest kid on the planet at toads?
- talking to justin when i first found out he was in tmo?!
- my computer crashing in august and me freakign the fuck out?
- fights with morgan?
- meghan's ideas for what to do with warped merch?
- "wrap it around your head like a turban and if anyone says anything say FUCK YOU ITS MY RELIGION"
- "stuff it down your pants and if anyone says anytihng be like I HAVE A BIG PACKAGE FOR SOMEONE"
- "make friends with a babyband and put your shit under their table"
- jack marin leaving cute and me freaking out?
- colin leaving htl and me frekaing out?
- jp awkwardly staring at me in like 20 second intervals while he was onstage during acoustic tour?
- fucking crying when i found out i couldnt see tmo because they dropped off my date?
- being creeps with emily and knocking on atl's tourbus because vinny said so?
- all i did in the summer was watch disney/hannah montana all day every day?
- the summer crew on mondays at lake compounce!??!!
- molly making friends with the chick who sat at the top of the skyrise @ LC?
- SCOTT?!?!?!?!?!??!?!
- UH OH MAN?!?!?!?!?!?!?
- asking scott if he remembered us and sounding like creeps cause he didnt?!
- walking into fye asking for the farewell cd and not being able to find it?
- screaming when i found out farewell got signed?
- JOE JONAS WHAT?
- KEVIN JONAS WHAT?
- NICK JONAS WHAT?
- KEVINOPOLOUS WHAT?
- matt damon?!
- meghan's birthday?
- talking to meghan the whole time during the bee movie about how ridic it was?
- WHAT? you're pregnant?
- sasha + adam 4eva
- stick on eyebrows?
- all the ghetto kids thought they could beat up mr jones but he ALWAYS won?
- mr eyebrows?!
- 106 days til bamboozle!
- MCR!
- dying during pmore?
- all the girls who thought they were leeeeeet putting their favorite [shitty] bands on tape and sticking it on themselves?
- feeling so lost at orientation? :|
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09:54 pm
[Link] | holy shit these are so annoying to do and i know no one's reading it but i force myself to do it :|
k so we got there at 7:45ish and sat on da benchezzz, there was no one there so we played music and sang and talked to the camera that we think is hidden somewhere...
then ameara came & we hung out until shan got there. then ameara's mom took us all to a deli to pee and hahaha we were squished in the car so it was funny.
we talked to casey a ton lmfao. when cobra pulled in he was outside and texting someone on his phone and he was like "what the fuck are they doing" i was like "dude go run after them" and hahahaha he actually did :| FUNNIEST THING OF MY LIFE I SWEAR TO GOD. cobra's bus kept driving somewhere, like past the venue. so casey LEGIT CHASED them. i died. he was waving his arms and cutting through shortcuts to get to them. oh god it was so funny. then he started asking us which way we came in and told us there's a certain way he wants everyone to come in. he was like "i need balloons" and then uh later he actually got balloons o_O i was like "dude you got balloons?" he was like YEP! ahahah he kept getting locked out of the venue and we were all dying laughing. then one time shan locked him out ahaha kjfkjsafjks i love us so much.
eventually suarez came out of the bus and came over to our bench and was like "hey can i sit here?" so we of course said yes. we talked to him for about a half hour about the most random stuff. THEN i foud out he was from stamford! and so am i! you dont even understand how boring this town is. nothing happens here dude :| i was like OHAYYY SO ARE WE :| then he started asking us a ton of questions about the schools he went to haha it was awesome. then he's randomly like "hey can i have a wheat thin" haha it was funny even though it doesnt sound like it. lmfao then casey got locked out AGAIN and we laughed and he shook his head cause he knew we were laughing at him. then we started talking to suarez about casey. suarez was like "i swear he looks exactly like napoleon dynamite" ahahah then he was like "yeah he's a sweet guy though he's just stressed, he has a lot to do" then the girl across from us had an old ghetto mp3 player so he was asking her how it worked and started telling us about the first one ever made [LMFAO] and how it was made by dell and he was so stoked to have it. lolol then he was like "i feel like i'm about to play family fued against you guys right now" so we talked about that and game shows and that one show where everyone got to do those gross things like go down a slide of chocolate and how suarez always wanted to do that. we started talking about disney/universal and how were 3 rides he never got to go on and they all shut down. then he was like "yeah so me and my friend went to universal and he wanted to go on the it's a small world ride, and all the little dolls were like half broken because it was all ghetto then. he started crying, and he's a big dude. i was like 'are you seriously crying right now' and he was like 'yeah it was so beautiful'" hahaha it was funny. haha then he said he wanted the ipod when it first came out but he was too poor. he started asking us what their next single should be so we talked about that a little. he's pretty amazing even though i dont like cobra that much anymore.
LMFAO then shan went and sat where he sat before because she was like falling off of our bench. so we were like "aw now suarez cant sit there anymore" and LEGIT 5 seconds later he walked out of the venue and we all burst out laughing. he looked around at us and was like "whatchya talkin about" ahahahaa we were laughing so hard but me & dom pulled it together long enough to explain the situation to him. he was like "oh i thought you were talking about me this whole time" later there was huge line to meet him, i was like -dies- some chick started crying when she saw him. i died for like the 93rd time that day
then we snuck inside to pee because we had to and me & shan already made a long long trip to the port-o-potty :| so yeah we snuck inside and wiley looked so confused. he was like uh -watches- i was like "thats semiawkward that wiley's just like watching us go to the bathroom" then when we walked out he was texting and didnt care. you wont know wiley unless you go to trackside all da tymez :|
we saw casey some more and then apologized for making fun of him all the time. hahaha jesse was with him and he was smirking the WHOLE time. you wont know jesse unless you've been to trackside a few times before. i was like "for real casey we're sorry. we're not really making fun of you we're just laughing at what happens to you" then he got locked out again LMFAO and we were like "okay do you kind of see where we're coming from though :|" hahahahaha
yeah then the other bands started showing up so we said hey to a couple of the guys.
dave was apparently there? yeah he wanted to cut me. i was like "LMFAO i got here at 7:45 this morning, please dont even" he was like "WTF WHY" and i was like dude just go away. we got pushed back cause they had to set everything up. casey started to try to separate the line and he was like "GUYS. i am jesus. i am splitting the sea." lmfaooo i was like "YOURE JESUS?!" he's like "yeah!" he totally said that because the entire day when someone would freak out over a band member we'd be like "OMGZ IT'S JESUS!!!!!!!" dave tried to cut me again and i told him to gtfo. then ameara told the guy who was checking us in that i got here at 7:45am. he's like "this morning?! are you insane!?" i was like uh duh. so we got in and ran center stage :) a shitload of pushing started [before the show even started] so yeah the "barricade" aka the fucking speaker fell onto the stage and me & molly were halfway on the stage. someone helped us ty god. casey kept getting mad and told everyone he'd stop the show if they kept pushing... no one believed him tbh. then the cab came on and everyone was screaming like hell. marshall was smiling so hard, it was so cute. started with "sing me to sleep" a new song i didnt know. then they played that 70's song, which is also new, but me dom & molly knew the words because we're fucking elite. alex was so shocked seriously ahaha. he sang to us the whole set baaasically! i was smiling so hard at marshall during that song :] then they played hide the key and when deleon was introducing it he was like "this is for the girls up front" and pointed to the three of us. i loved my life during that set. we were fucking screaming during that song because it's our faveee. tons of smiling at marshall went on again because he's adorable. i dont remember which song it was but at one point deleon got on his knees and sang to me for like a full 10 seconds. hehe then they played take my hand and he put the mic to my mouth and i sang. then he did the same to dom but she didnt sing lmfaooo. he kept grabbing my hand during that song i was like AW I LOVE YOU. at one point my hand was resting on the speaker and he picked it up to hold it ahaha i was like AWKWARD. he ran his fingers through dom's hair like it says in the song ahhahahaha omg then he touched molly's face. WE WIN SO FUCKING HARD DUDE. me & ameara kept laughing at eachothaaa. they played i'll run and alex put the mic down and let everyone sing and it was so loud. it was pretty incredible.
then wtk came on and lmfao halfway into like their first song a drumstick comes flying at ameara. they were playing and the drummer mouthed "IM SO SORRY!" and made a face. it was cute. so i got through about 15 minutes before i legit blacked out. first i got all hot and sweaty and dizzy but then all i heard was loudness and then dom was like "are you okay" i was like "i cant fucking see" so after about 7 minutes i regained my vision and was okay. a couple minutes later ameara said she did the same thing so we both left. it was hell getting out. like okay i understand that you want my barricade spot but can you please let me get the fuck out first? thanks. so me and ameara hung out then were joined by dom and molly. wtk played really well though.
yeah we chilled a little and bought merch, then when metro came on we decided to go back in the crowd on the side and we hxc partied! it was really fun actually :) i saw trace *~flirtin with shan a little onstage ahaha. some obnoxious girls went backstage but britton kicked them out since they werent supposed to be there. i was all LOL OWNED. after their set we went back out by merch and saw alex. he was eating something :| we talked to him for 5 seconds since he didnt even stop. he was talking to us as he was walking by us, which was like a 5 second time period. i was like okay thats a huge change from onstage. then i saw marshall through like a crowd of people. i called him twice and thought he didnt hear me so i talked to molly. then i looked back up and saw him looking at me semiconfused. so i motioned for him to come over. we talked for a little then he gave molly a handshake and asked her name and did the same for dom. so i was all ready to give the kid a handshake... when he puts his arm out and pulls me into a hug. i was like UH. then he asked for my name and i told him. we talked a little more and then i took a picture and i was like "yeahyuh i did it. we're not white" he was confused so i explained my camera situation to him ahaha then he was like "oh! we're not white are we?" so i told him no. then we talked for another minute and he said thank you..? i was like aha no thank you :| it was semiawkward
then we were hanging some more and saw trace check his reflection in the glass. we were on the other side of the glass and he was fixing his hair so i was like -dies of laughter- we saw him later so dom said hi and he was like "hello ladies!" but i didnt hear her say hi first so i was like wtf did he just randomly say hi to us :| but then i got ittt
LOL so we were sitting on a bench inside with a table where there were a ton of check-in papers when jesse came up to us and asked us if we saw cobra's guestlist. i was like "no but here's metro's" so i gave it to him and he found everyone else's but cobra's :| he said if we found it to come find him. then a minute later casey asked us if we saw guestlists so i was like "jesse just came and took them all but didnt get cobra's" while i was saying that though molly was like "some guy came and took them" so casey was like "that would be jesse" and i was like "uh that would be why i said jesse came and took them :|" then we saw deleon walking around. some girl called him over and asked for a picture. he took the picture and when she went to look to make sure she got it he walked away. i was like "are you kidding me :|" so later he walked toward us so i was like ALEX and he said hey and kept walking so i was like how are you and he KEPT WALKING but turned around for .5 seconds to say "how are YOU?!" but kept walking. so i was like WTF YOU DOUCHEBAG :|
so yeah we sang while sitting down for cobra hehe and made arrangements to go back to ameara's car to get our shit before wtk/metro acoustic outside. so we got our stuff and it was like the 9 of us waiting outside the bus for the acoustic. then callie went and knocked on the bus so trace told her it was by the benches... so we went there and found out it was around the corner. so i was like OH MY GOD PICK A FREAKING PLACE. but yeah so we were waiting and mason was like "excuuuse me!" so we moved and were like sorry. and he's like "nah it's all good dont worry" travis played check yes and trace was dancing ahaha, then mason/trace played disco, then travis played skyway, then mason/trace played tell me. it was awesome :)
so yeaaah then we were walking out to my mom and saw a group of over 75 people waiting for cobra to come out of the bus :| i was like LMFAO YOU WONT MEET THEMMMM
but yeah thats it. it wasnt the best night as far as bands go but it was fun i guess
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we get to trackside a little after 5. we get out of the car and fucking casey's dog comes jumping on us like ALWAYS. so we pet him for a minute then go and sit down on our bench that we always get :) there was no one there but then these two girls came. we started talking to them and some other people that came. theresa & meghan showed up and we hugged and theresa was being a creep but it's okay because i love her. we were super cold and yelled at casey to make sure we get in exactly at 7 because if it's late we'll be mad. we hang out and be insanely crazy... i see topher walk by from inside like eight thousand times and yell his name but he never heard me apparently. then mikey! from the bigger lights opens the door and is like "are you guys cold" and we're like "yes :( let us in!" and he's like "aw you'll come in soon" then dan comes and like walks out the door so we talk for mikey a minute then he's like "okay well i gotta go... i'll see you guys inside" so he went inside lmfao and i decided to be obnoxious and scream his name AFTER he was inside. he like whips back around and is like "WHO JUST SAID MY NAME?!" i was like "me!" so ahahahah he opens the door again and said hi and we're like "we're cold :(" then he's like "i'm sorrrry. i'll see you inside though!" so i'm like "come out & wait with us!" and he's like "nah i'll go inside" so i pouted and he laughed and went inside. then we decided that if they didnt let us in at 7 we were going to put our faces against the doors until they let us in. hahaha then topher walks by [inside] so i was like TOPHERRRR and he like backed up and waved with the most enthusiastic expression on his face... it made me smile so much. so we chill some more and theresa said she was going to go up to jk and say "HI JK IM LOL" some kid puts his head against the glass from inside so i do the same... then we finally go inside exactly at 7 so i was stoked :)
we sit on the trackside floor then stand up when the first band played. their name was picked on sally. i couldnt hear the singer at all so i told him that & he was like "i cant hear myself either" so i was like :| k. they were really good actually
then the ivy league palyed & i didnt really like them at all. they were funny but their music was just bad. i was so bored during their set. after they played though i started freaking out because the bigger lights would be on so i was liek KDSFJSJFKJSDG OMG
so they come on stage & start setting up. mikey looks at me and says "hey you got in!" i was like "ha yes we did." so then he gives me a sort of broken drumstick and is like "here" i'm like "whaaat are you sure" he's like "yeah i cant use it" so i said thank you & then everyone else was jeal... obvi hahah and all wanted drumsticks. i think he gave out over 5 drumsticks that night, i felt so bad :/ meghan tried to steal the setlist but john stopped her haha. guilty pleasure started playing so we did the dance because we are so beyond awesome. then hit the lights started playing so we did some hxc singalongs because we win at life. topher laughed at us :( they started with the chemicals of you so i hxc partied... then when did we lose ourselves... then a song off their ep i think that i didnt know... then romance then closed with revved & ready. i was so scared topher would hit me with his mic because he likes to swing it around ahahah but he didnt hit me woo. then we find out from john that they do not have a tip jar. so we spent like five minutes while he was on stage telling him to get a tip jar because me & meghan like to give away like 20 bucks a show on merch guys. he said he'd go look for a jar.
then holiday parade played & tbh i was semi-bored because it was acoustic :\ so i left and bought tbl merch hahaha i told mikey to keep the change and he was like "uhh..." and looked at topher. so topher was like "no get your change" i was like "it's 5 dollars just keep it" and he's like "wow thank you" haha so i talked to topher for like 10 minutes during hp's set. he's like "have you seen us before?" i said no and he's like "really? you knew all the words though!" that made me smile :) he said how he had to drive home and they wouldnt get home until 5am. i was like "one day you guys will get a driver" he's like "oh i dont know. maybe." yes you will :| i gave him gum wooo. then mikey came in and gave him a hug haha so i was like YO I WANT A HUG and i got one. talked to topher & jk for a couple of minutes and topher said he was sick so i like "awh. wait jk arent you sick too?" he's like "how did you know that" topher was like "you posted a myspace bulletin about it" then jk started talking about how he doesnt recognize people from online in person even if he talks to them every day because everyone looks different & they probably look different too. and i was like no not really :| topher's like "I ALWAYS LOOK LIKE THIS" then he made that scary looking face lmfao and i was like "actually my friend & i were talking about that..." and he's like "yeah thats how i take all my pictures" then mikey like laid down on the ground [legit] and topher's like "mikey's dead!" and i was like "that would suck. i'd cry" then mikey got up and topher's like "mikey's not dead!" and i was like "good. he cant die" aha mikey's like "dont worry i wont die" aha so mikey left after a minute and then i was talking to topher more about the random-est stuff hhaha. then john came up to him and said something and it sounded like they had to go so i was like "oh do you guys need to leave?" and topher's like "no! no you're good dont worry." john's like "yeah we can stay" i was like "psh fine i was just trying to be niceee"
then hp ended so i found dom & meghan and we started talking to john about how they really really need a tip jar and ask him if he found one. he said he didnt but he'd get one by the next show. then meghan said they should play her sweet 16 and everyone started joking about how the tip jar would help them get to ny for her birthday. meghan told him to ride a bike and john's like "yeah we'd be like on the interstate and we'd all die. we'd get there in pieces. one of us would definitely die" so we were like "okay the bike thing is a bad idea." hahaha so then they said they'd take their equipment and stuff and like tag it on the back of their bike and they'd crash... john is one interesting dude. haha john was like "'got tip jar?' that should totally be our next shirt... like 'got milk?'" and we all love that idea :) thennn we told him that the band must have planned the wearing red thing. and he's like "well we discussed it... but it wasnt like HEY IM WEARING RED YOU SHOULD TOO" and i was like "wait but you actually talked about wearing red?" hahaha he said sort of. CREEPS!
then i saw mikey so i got a picture with him and it was blurry so i was like "okay if we do it on flash we'll be white" he's like "we already are white" and i was like "well, true... i am white" then he said "well i'm mexican so i'm really not white" ahahha so i took it on flash and we were white like i said. then i took it AGAIN not on flash and i was like k thats good. he wanted to see so i showed him. then i told him that he needs to remind john about the tip jar. he said he already ordered one. i was like "why would you waste money on that!" he said it's better to order one. so we talked a little more then left.
so we walked around a little and started talking to topher and jk again. topher told dom he liked her morning light shirt and how theyre playing with them etc etc. so i was like "oh yeah i forgot to tell you! you guys need to come up here and play with them. that'd make my life" then he started telling us how theyre playing a couple shows with them but none up here. so i told him he needed to play with them & he said he'd see what he can do cause that'd be awesome and they love trackside. then somehow we started talking about all time low because meghan's seeing them tomorrow. topher told her to tell them he said hi. meghan's like "yeah if i meet them i'll be like 'topher and all them say hi'" so i was like "hahahaha just topher says hi. no one else. just topher." jk asked her what time she's getting there & she said 11 so he's like "oh yeah you'll definitely meet them" then i was like "wait didnt you guys get kicked out of an atl show?" and he said yeah so i asked him how. he started saying how since they were on the same management as atl they could pass out flyers [for their show a couple days later] but they never got it okayed because they didnt know they needed to. so the venue found out and kicked them out hahah but it was after the show anyway. thennn john kind of wandered over. then i called mikey over because we started talking about the tip jar again. SO LMFAO WE HAD THE FOUR OF THEM IN A FREAKING ROW TALKING TO US. we couldnt find dan so he wasnt there. there were people there like waiting to talk to them but we didnt care because we were in the middle of a conversation. anyway so i told them how mikey said he ordered a tip jar. jk was like "the point of getting a tip jar to GET money not to SPEND it" so mikey's like "yeah but you gotta spend some to get some!" hahaha then john was like "we could always just eat some pickles and then use the jar as a tip jar" then, in order to prove his point, mikey's like "dude either way we're spending money" so i was like "okay okay okay... to save money you could use a plastic bag. we'll bring you one in march." they apparently loved that idea and john was like "DUDE that'd be so awesome" hahaa jk was like "we'd just have a plastic bag hanging from the table. sweet" so topher felt weird about the tip jar idea because he thought it was like, asking people to give them money. and we said that some people actually like to give tips. then i suggested he puts a sign on the tip jar saying 'we feel weird about this' haha topher pointed at me and was like "YES! that's such a good idea" i said it was only obnoxious if people like, go around collecting tips for you. john was like "oh i feel you on that one. we'll never do that." i told john i'd keep leaving him daily myspace comments reminding him to get a tip jar & i'd be the annoying girl that did that. hahaha he said that was a good idea. so we talked to them some more.
we talked to jk. dom asked him what he name means and he said just kidding. i was like "liar" aha then he's like "how come it's funny when you tell me my name means just kidding but not when i tell you?!" i was like "we never told you your name means just kidding" so meghan was like "if you just give us the j we'll be good" so he asked us what the k stood for and i was like "KENDALL!" he's like "how do you know that" so dom said i was creepy & meghan was like "yeah, she's good" hahahaha so i creeped him out insanely and then he said the j stands for john so we were happy because we knew what it stood for.
we chilled a little at a table and topher like banged into some girl and made her drop something and he was like "oh i'm so sorry. i'm a horrible person" and picked up whatever he dropped aha he's so cute. then some girls ran over and got a picture with him and left. he had a weird look on his face when they left :| he actually starts conversations & likes talking to people so i think he felt awkward. then i saw him pick a sharpie up from the floor. so i was like OHAY SHARPIE haha i wanted them to sign my drumstick that mikey destroyed completely. so i got topher to sign it then dom got him to sign hers. then i called mikey over to sign it. hahaha okay! topher was holding doms and tried to give it to mikey but mikey was signing mine. so he's like "dude can you hold that" so lmfaoooo topher starts poking everyone IN THE FACE with the drumstick. i just about died. he was poking mikey and he almost fucked up his signature. then he poked me for like a minute and i was like "dude youre going to poke my eye out" so mikey gave me my drumstick & signed dom's. then we got dan, john, and jk to sign them too. jk started telling us how chicken broth helps you with a sore throat and some girl thinks he's lying to her ahaha. theresa asked him to sign it as jk so he wrote "jk (lol :]) hahaha he wins at life.
so the lady started kicking us out because they obviously are very serious about the closing at 11 rule. so i saw topher & got a hug goodbye and then we left.
seriously the bigger lights are the nicest kids you will ever meet in your entire life ever. you will never meet a nicer band or nicer people than them. i can promise you that. myspace.com/thebiggerlights
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bring back the punk festival.
okay so.. this show was more amazing than any other show. just because of the fact that it was three of my favorite bands. and lmfao i saw 15 people so uh if you're reading this you might want to stop now.
so we got there & hung with ameara in line. then we went in & i saw BRENDAN! so i of course ran over to him because he's my favorite person ever. told him how everyone has his burberry scarf. he's like "oh yeah i know! that's why i'm wearing a different one. i gotta switch it up! i actually saw some girl wearing it before..." talked to him for a couple minutes then got a picture which he actually looks semi-happy in. the picture wouldnt take at first so he was making fun of me :| i was like SHUT UP. i got two hugs from him.
then i saw harrison. i started to walk over to him but he beat me to it :| he like popped out of nowhere and was like "HEY!" with this huge smile on his face haha it was so cute. so i had him call dom... then i yelled at him for always saying "okay well i'll see you guys later" because we never see him again. but yeah talked to him for a minute, got a hug & picture. then i saw andy. lmfao i almost made him spill his coffee. it was so funny. talked to him & got a hug and picture which i look awful in... because i was TALKING to him while i was taking the picture. i did the same with harrison & brendan hahaha. then i went upstairs to the bathroom and saw george like standing on the steps talking to someone. so people were coming down so i had to stand off to the side, which just happened to be right behind george. it was awkward.
i saw bq! i told him he was really popular tonight. he was like "yeah i dont know why people like me..." i told him that his band needs to come to ct and he was like OKAY ILL MAKE IT HAPPEN FOR YOU. I PROMISE. aha i got a picture which he looks like a creeeep in... he legit always looks like a creep in pictures.
saw zack for like 15 seconds before he was surrounded. asked him if he was overwhelmed tonight and he said yeah. i got a picture/hug anyway because i'm a horrible person. then went to the morning light merch and saw nano. i told him i liked his hat that an atlb gave to him. the whole band was wearing them ahahaha. i got a picture & hug. said hey to andy. then saw bobby. HE GAVE ME A HANDSHAKE :| i was like "dude, that's what i get? a handshake?!" so he put his finger up [as to say one second] and got out from the merch table and gave me a huge hug. i asked him if they were selling a lot of merch and he said sort of. then i asked him what time they were playing and he was like "oh, um. 630? 645? i dont know, one of those." i was like "but you dont know which one" he's like "nope." talked to him for a little & got a picture and another hug.
walked around a little and got valencia merch. haha at one point brendan was running it and i wanted to buy a shirt, so i asked him for a medium. he was like "WHAT? A MEDIUM? YOU DONT NEED A MEDIUM." i was thinking to myself 'oh god, here we go again' but i said "i know but i want one!" so brendan was like "i dont even wear a medium and you're so much smaller than me" i was like "brendan can i just have a medium :|" skfjkfs he's so cute he was like "FINE. i just want to make sure youre happy with your purchase!" i was laughing & said "I WILL BE."
saw georgieee walking around and finally called him over after the awkward stairs experience. he was like "HEY!" -gives hug- i almost fell over. it was like matty flyz all over again. i didnt really know what to say to him lmfao so i got a picture & another hug. i wish that freaking boy would SHAVE HIS FACE. and k i'm going to sound like a teenie for .5 seconds. i have discovered that george is really really reallllly goodlooking; but when he smiles in pictures he looks like a creep. his smile is nice & stuff it just doesnt fit with his face o_O
then we walked around some more and saw shane! i felt like a stalker hahaha he kept walking away then coming back and talking to the same person. finally i got him and had him call bree. it was in the middle of a set though so he kept mouthing to me I CANT HEAR HER. and i was like DUDE WHAT DO YOU WANT ME TO DO :| he shrugged. so i was like alright then. talked to him for a minute & got a hug/picture.
saw flyzik and emily haha. she was wearing his santa hat [it had his name on it] so he pointed to her and was like MY NAME IS ON YOUR HAT! she was like "yeah it's yours!" she gave it to him & he put it on. i asked him to call dom and he said he hates phonecalls because he has to do so many for atl. i was like "are you serious :|" he said yes. so i got a hug and picture.
gaskarth was free for like 2 seconds so i ran over and told him to go see ameara. he asked where she was and i said i didnt know. so he said if i saw her to tell her to come see him. LATER I FIND OUT THEY APPARENTLY ALREADY TALKED? so i asked him if he was overwhelmed and he said "yeah but it's all good" so i got a hug and a picture and then he was swarmed so i left :|
then we went in the crowd for the morning light. we were front row right next to the speaker so uh it was awesome i guess. it was super weird not being front & center but i lived. they said they werent coming back for a while... so someone, i dont remember who, was like YEAH WE WONT BE BACK FOR ANOTHER YEAR SO MAKE THE MOST OF THIS. :| jerks. they love connecticut... as they say at every single show. bobby was like "yeah if youre not from ct then sorry.. but this is our favorite place to play." they played a new song and it was absolutely incredible. lol bobby was like "merry christmas to everyone. i'm not saying happy hanukkah because that already passed so uh i wont even bother with that." harrison goes insane on the keyboard as always. i couldnt see andy because, LIKE ALWAYS, he hides behind harrison and there was a giant speaker in my way.
after their set was over we went over to their merch table to find bobby and harrison surrounded. i was like uh where were you before they played?!?!? so i talked to matt and told him happy birthday. i asked him when they were coming back and he said not until april. ugh. okay this is how much of an idiot i am... my camera was still set to video.. but i didnt know that... so me & matt were trying to take a picture :| so i have one video of matt like, eating my head and another of us standing there waiting for the picture to take. i told him it was on video and he's like "OH SWEET now there's this really awesome video of us standing there and saying 'did it take yet? did it take yet?!!?'" hahahah he is too amazing. so we FINALLY took a picture & i got a hug.
walked around again lmfao and saw rian! he was basically jogging past me. i called him and he turned around so i asked him if he was busy. he's like "no! whatsup?" so i asked him to call dom and he said he didnt want to because it was in the middle of a set and he wouldnt be able to hear. i told him shane did it :| aha he said he'd see me later and he'd call her then. i was like "okay i better see you later then." he said i would. GUESS WHAT? I DIDNT :| but i got a hug and picture.
tbh i really wanted to finally see grieco so i called him over and asked him if he was busy because i didnt want to interrupt him. he's like "no... why" so i told him i wanted to take a picture with him but if he was busy then i'd see him later. he said we could do it now and started to like, take bracelets off of his arm? i was like "what are you doing" he said something but i didnt hear him aha. then we took the picture aaand i got a hug.
saw brendan again and i was pretty bored so i talked to him. i asked him when they were coming back and he said february & not to worry because it'll be well worth the wait. i was like "i hope you know i'm fully going to hold you that. so if the tour sucks it's your fault." then i asked him why he kept changing clothing because that was legit the third outfit i saw him in... and he hadnt even played yet. so he was like "i only changed once" and i was like "uh no you've changed twice" he's like "i only remember wearing two outfits..." hahaha i was like "dude this is my third time talking to you and youve been in a different outfit every time." i told him he was wasting clothes... then he started to tell me how he wont have to change after the set because he doesnt sweat that much? because that was of course crucial information. so now everyone knows brendan doesnt sweat that much. or so he says.
GUYS I PROMISE IM ALMOST DONE LMFAO. BEAR WITH ME.
okay so this by far was my favorite part of the night :| jack was talking to someone, and since i havent seen that kid since fucking MAY i missed him like hell. so i waited for him to be done and he started to walk away. so i was calling him and he didnt hear me. then some girls started talking to him so i was jsut going to wait for them to be done. then a trail of about eight girls cuts in front of me and is like OMG JACK. and i was like are you fucking kidding me?! SO ALL IN ALL, some obnoxious atlb starts making fun of me because of how pissed off i was, and i wound up waiting fifteen minutes for seven seconds with jack. tbh i didnt realize how bad it all was until then. it was by FAR the best part of my night. sarcasm doesnt translate well over the internet.
FINALLY valencia was on so i went into the crowd for them and somehow wound up next to elissa o_O so i sat with her for a little then we got up when valencia started. i somehow wound up third row and i was on brendan's side so i was like -loves life- shane decides he wants everyone to start three mosh pits. i wanted to kill him because last time someone -coughdannycough- said they wanted a mosh pit to start i fell down for five minutes :| but i didnt fall down this time wooooo. OH MY GOD THEIR NEW SONGS ARE INCREDIBLE. IM SO STOKED FOR THEIR NEW ALBUM. they never played one of the songs live before so we were the first to hear it :) george said it was our holiday present.
i didnt feel like staying in for atl so i left and called dom & talked to her a little. got some dirty looks from people due to jokes i made. i didnt go back in the crowd but i stood by and watched. rian is a fucking BEAST on drums. i never noticed it before but dayuuum he's incredible. i met up with ameara for the last couple of songs and we sat and talked/sang. then i left and saw brendan selling cd's on the way out haha i felt so bad. i gave him a hug goodbye.
I'M FINALLY DONE :|
k please dont ask me when i'll have pictures because my computer doesnt want to upload them because it sucks.
lmfao if you read this i feel EXTREMELY sorry for you that i just wasted like twenty five minutes of your life.
this probably doesnt even make sense.
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THOUGHTS!
i care about people much more than they care about me... but ironically, those people say the same things about themselves. so if we both feel that way how can it be true? how can two people in one friendship both feel neglected? maybe it's because we're so focused on thinking that other person doesnt care about us that we dont make it evident just how much we care about them. maybe it's because we're too wrapped up in ourselves to focus on the other person. maybe it's because as much as we say we love each other, it doesnt mean much. some of us dont believe that anyone can love us. some of us have problems wrapping our minds around that. and for some people, so many people say they love them that they dont know who really does and who's just saying it. personally, if i tell you i love you, i mean it. and i dont go back on that. even if something awful happened, chances are i'll still love you somewhere inside of me. i may want to cause you so much pain you wont even know what to do with yourself.. but i'll still love you. it probably makes no sense to you, but it does to me.
most people feel like their friends are limited. those are sometimes the same people that go out every weekend. if people make plans with you, your friends arent limited. you just feel like they are. i've found that some of the most incredible people i've ever spoken to dont have the best of friends. i'm not sure of why that is.
most stereotypes are true. it may take you a while to figure that out, but 90% of the time, all stereotypes have at least some truth behind them. most stereotypes and labels are taken to extremities, which leads people to believe they're not true. the same people who believe stereotypes arent true are the same exact people who carry out a certain stereotype.
be aware of what's going on in the world. i'm not telling you that you have to try and stop everything. you're not going to stop global warming despite what you think. just be aware that it's happening and dont be ignorant about it. in my opinion, if it's going to happen, it's going to happen and no matter how we try to stop it, we cant. we can try and slow it down, but it'll happen eventually. it's inevitable. so what's the difference between putting off a hundred years? so we ourselves and our families wont be affected by it? that's a really bad reason to be honest. there are starving children EVERYWHERE around the world. not only in third world countries. the reality of it is, no matter how much food you send over and no matter how much money you donat, you wont get to every country and you wont save everyone. before people from the united states travel to africa to help the starving children there, maybe they should pay a little more attention to what's going on in their own countries. just because the united states is a rich country does not by any means mean that everyone in the united states is doing fine. there are homeless people in absolutely every single city in this country, but no one gives a shit about them and trying to provide good lives for them. the united states is the last country that ever gets help, because we're all viewed at as rich. if you want to try and fix all the problems in the world, then you can. but you're not going to. one thing you CAN do, which will both help feed starving children and improve your vocabulary [because of you desperately need it] is go to freerice.com. it's self explanatory once you're on the website.
our society is screwed up. it's downright screwed up. girls are taught that a size two is fat. what the hell is that?! and sorry, making santa claus go on a diet will not help the goddamn population from being fat. suing mcdonalds because you are 900 pounds will not help you get skinnier. you ate the mcdonalds and the cake and the cookies and the chips and the burgers, therefore you deserve to be on your deathbed at age 30 due to heart failure. and who the hell is feeding you since you're too massive to move? OH, THAT'S RIGHT, YOUR MOTHER. then your mother, who is also 400 pounds, goes crying to dr phil about how their child is dying. STOP. FEEDING. YOUR GODDAMN. CHILD. did it ever occur to the media that if they left lindsay lohan alone then maybe she wouldnt do so much drugs & alcohol? and maybe she wouldnt be so screwed up? no one leaves her alone for two seconds. if you're listening to what the media is telling you, you really need to get past that because it's going to kill you. whether you become anorexic, bulumic, an alcoholic, a drug addict, etc. and just because someone isnt wearing designer clothing or whatever doesnt mean they're any less of a person. just because not everyone has as much money as you do or as many items as you do doesnt mean you should put them down or make them feel like shit because of it. you're no better than them, no matter how rich, pretty, skinny, or good of an upbringing you had. someone with a good upbringing could be an awful person and someone with an awful upbringing could be an amazing person. dont judge too quickly.
this last thing is something difficult for people to understand. i've never come across a person who understands this, so if you do... let me know so i dont feel weird. we will all die one day. we know that. so why does it make a difference what we do between the time we're born and the time we die? unless you're famous and have done something truly great for the world, you'll be forgotten once you're gone. if you help your best friend go through something major, chances are that person wont be your best friend in ten, maybe even five years. what you did will one day be forgotten. there's no sense in mourning over deaths because the person you are mourning over is gone. by mourning, you're not in any means going to change the fact that said person is gone. so why do we work so goddamn hard to get a's through high school? to go to a good college? to later get a good job? to support ourselves? why does any of that make a difference in your death? people will talk differently about you depending on what you do in your lifetime, but you wont be there to hear what they say. you wont be there to see if one person or one thousand people show up at your funeral. you wont know. it makes no difference what we do in our lifetime because one day we'll all end up in the ground and we'll all be dead and forgotten.
this is all just ramblings, but i felt they were important and worth reading. looking back on it i'm not so sure. post your opinions & start stuff with me. i'm interested.
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a lot of the things you hear that are supposed to be *~inspirational are created just to make you feel better. "god doesnt throw anything at you he doesnt think you can handle" whether or not you believe in god, this whole saying is bullshit, quite honestly. because if everyone could handle everything that was thrown at them, so many kids wouldnt attempt/commit suicide. they're not strong enough to make it through whatever it is that god so wisely thought they could handle. so if god thought they could handle it, but they couldnt, and wound up killing themselves because of it... isnt god responsible for their deaths? or partially responsible, at least.
i'll keep editing this daily or something because i keep thinking of new stuff to write. cause i'm a freak of course!
edit 12/15:
why do we rely on other people to make us happy? cant we make ourselves happy? why are people, including myself, so desperate to find a 'best friend'? you wont be best friends forever. so moving on and making a new best friend every time you lose one is pretty pointless. i dont know the exact saying, but it's something like "friends are forever, boyfriends arent" or something. that's really not true. at all. friends will most likely last longer than boyfriends, but neither one will last forever, despite how close you think you are with your friends.
sometime in the past week in school i heard the phrase "marriage is no reason to not love anymore." i disagree with that. if you get married at 25, you will [ideally] be with that person until you die. i know i would get bored of having to look at the same person's face for 50 years. that's part of the reason why i dont have steady friends. i get bored and fed up with people because the same crap winds up happening. always. to me, marriage makes love fade. that's because you no longer have the thrill of wondering what will happen if you've been with the same person for 50 years. you already KNOW what's going to happen... where's the fun in that? you've already figured that person out. there's no more wondering. you know their every move by the time you're married for five years. marriage bounds you to someone forever. honestly i think that's half the reason why abused wives stay with their husbands. it'd be a lot easier to walk away if they werent married. but since theyre married there's so much legal stuff to deal with and most people dont have the time or energy. it's much harder to break a marriage than it is to break a boyfriend&girlfriend.
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ALL TIME LOW/VALENCIA/THEAUDITION/BOYS LIKE GIRLS
first of all, best show ever. second of all, this will be the longest blog i have ever posted. honestly. and after all time low's set, everything might kindof be out of order. i'm trying to put it in order but i'm having difficulty with it :|
kso we get there around 5:15ish because god was good to us and gave us no traffic. then we saw ameara and shan and hung with them a litttttttttle. then i saw VINNY VEGAS! so i called him over ofcourse and got a picture... which wound up blurry. so he starts telling me this story. he's like "dude! i had that hoodie! some girl told me she'd wash it for me so i gave it to her then i never got it back." and i was like "why didnt you wash it" he's like "i was poor :( plus i had no time. now some random chick has my hoodie!" and i said "wait so you didnt even know her?" he was like "NO! she just offered to wash it so i was like sweeeeet." and i was like ":| alright vinny." then some random chicks totally just came into my conversation with him. they were like OMGZ VINNY'S SO HAWTT. CAN I HAVE A PICTURE!!?!?!? and i was like :| he was still talkign to me even though they were there hahah. so then i got anothaaa picture with him because the first came out blurry. so that was picture 2 of 3 because that one sucked too.
then all of us are just chilling and all of a sudden some dude goes "HEY." and i was like heeey thats valencia's merch guy. he said "i dont know if you've ever heard of this band -points to his valencia hoodie- but they're playing here tonight." and we're like "yep we love them!" shan's all "i've seen them like ten times" he was like "really?!?" so then he starts telling us how poor they are and they have to travel to boston and theyre broke. and i'm like "really?" and hes like "dude we live in a van. we're broke" AND JUST FYI, THEY ARE NOT BROKE. IF BRENDAN CAN HAVE A 300 DOLLAR SCARF THEN HE IS NOT BROKE. THANK YOU BQ FOR LYING TO ME. his name was bq! like burger queen! he showed us the valencia hoodie, trying to sell it to us. so we talked to him for a little, and i was creepy and told him i knew him because of danica... then he tried to tell me he was canadian because she's canadian. whodafck knows what he was talking about.
THEN after we all hung out a bit, girls started bitching so we went to the back where my mommy was waiting. all of a sudden i see brendan from valencia! he was going up to people too ahah. i was like BRENDAAAAN. so he came over and we had the most awkward conversation ever just btw. he told dom he liked her morning light shirt, then we all started laughing. he's like "why is that funny :|" and we're like "everyone alllllways tells her that." he's like "oh well it's a good shirt!" meghan's like "yeah they live with us." and haha brendan was like "they live with you?! like in your house?!" and we were like ":| no... they come near us all the time." so i got a picture then we talked a little more. these girls behind us were like omgz i wonda if hez a friend of blg!!! pplz r takin picz wit him!!!1 and i was like :| that is brendan from valencia and he owns you.
THEN WE SAW BQ AGAIN. seriously we talked to him like five times that night. he said the same thing to other people that he said to us so we were like "do you like have a speech prepared for this :|" and he's like "yes i do!" then he started telling me about an open turkey sandwich and how they dont sell any here? i was like "wtf is that" and apparently it's a turkey sandwich... but with no bread on the top... only the bottom. so dom was like "why dont you just take the bread off!" and apparently they dont even sell turkey sandwiches here. so i was EXTREMELY confused so i just kept asking him about the open turkey sandwich because i'm a retard!
then all of a sudden, there's earpiercing screams. like honestly you dont even understand. there's little girls rushing out of line behind us and running and screaming to the front. honestly i never heard so much screaming before in my life. so we were like "OMGGGG ITZ MARTIN LYKE OMG MARTIN OMG OMG OMG!" and making fun of everyone. i had fun tbh :| but wow those girls can scream :| it was insane
then we went insideee. lmao poor bq was in the crowd trying to sell people cd's. i was like "do you do this voluntary :|" he was liek "yeah. i love it." and meghan said "so they dont tell you to do it?" he's like "i'm not their bitch or anything." ahahh she didnt even say that :| but i felt bad for him tbh.
sooo valencia started! they're amazing honestly. when they first came on everyone thought they were boys like girls hahahah the screams i heard were so funny. but yeah they're really good live. i kind of got the chills during their new song, its incredible.
then theaudition was on. the crowd got the most insane during them. i was like 5th or 6th row during their set. but i was in the center. so danny starts telling everyone to start a circle pit and i was like "no no no i hate you" so what do i do!? after five minutes i fall down. and i was like shit shit shit. i was crushing this girl and there were two girls on top of me. i srsly was down for five minutes. even when someone tried to help me up, i couldnt because my legs were under other people. it was awkward and there was actually a second there where i thought i was going to get serioulsy injured :| but i didnt! so k i said this before and i'll say it again, THEIR NEW SONGS ARE INCREDIBLE. honestly i am so excited for this album. january 22nd bb! go buy champion! they're really good live and have awesome stage energy. then during the last song martin from blg came out. so everyone was all OMGZ MARTIIIIIN. he was in the crowd & everyone tried to touch him :| hahahaha
then then then all time low! i got 4th row-ish. it changed during the whole set. some chick was like "all time low? is that a band?" i was like -punches- they came out to soulja boy and alex started dancing ahahah. ty to ameara for teaching him. they started playing dear maria and i was like dayuuum i'm seeing the boys right now. then alex just left towards the end of the song. i was confused. he came back and apparently he blacked out and his eyes were in the back of his head. it was scary to hear about actually. ahahah and jack was like "well this is awkward. i'm sorry everyone! alex has diarrea, and that's why he's taking so long. so hey, you, what's your name? hey rian shut the fuck up with the drums, i'm trying to pick up these girls in the front!" since gaskarth is afraid of ameara there were no crowdsurfers. seriously :| jack was like "ALEX HAS AIDS." and everyone started cheering. alex said "dude i love how he says that and the people in the front start cheering. do you want me to die?" so lmao during hustler alex told us to sit down. not even half the crowd would. he was like "ARE YOU SERIOUSLY NOT GOING TO COOPERATE?" we were liek "no :|" then he told everyone if they didnt sit down they had chlamydia. i didnt spell that right. they would also play hustler 9 times if we didnt sit down. so obv no one sat down. anywayz then he pointed to the front and was like "its all their fault!" FLYZIIIIK came out during the end of the song. that boy has an amazing voice. honestly. it was an awesome set.
so then i left! tbh i was dyiiiing. found meghan & dom. we left and went down to the bathroom to avoid looking like complete shit the entire rest of the night. it worked for them, not so much for me. aha anyways on the way out we saw nano! got a hug and so yelled at him for not being at the morning light show in october. he was in la that weekend :| doucheeee. then he started telling us how he'd be at bring back the punk and atl is on at 10:30. seriously all three of our faces just visibly dropped. we were like "are you kidding" he's like "no. why, is that bad?" dom told him about my parents being strict. so i had a minifreakout right there/yelled at him. then he was like OH SWEET THEY HAVE GUITAR HERO HERE. i was like "yah. go play." then these peoplez totally cut into our conversation. lmfao okay dom got out flyzik's birthday card. she didnt seal it shut. it was sealed shut with sweat dude. that is disgusting. i'm not saying its her sweat because its obv not, but like seriously, thats gross. then we said byebye to nano and went back upsturrz. we bought water and talked to bq. again.
we were buying merch aaand brendan was there. he pointed at me and said "VALENCIA SHIRT?!" and i was like "yep!" he told dom again how awesome her shirt was. then we laughed and he said "well she has awesome music taste and that's why she gets so many compliments on the shirt. see if you buy a valencia shirt you'll get compliments because you'll have good music taste!" and i'm like "brendan. i'm buying a shirt. you dont have to sell it to me." then he laughed and dskgjkjdh this boy is adorable. he asked me which one i was gonna get. i told him the arrows one. he was like "REALLY? THATS MY FAVORITE ONE. OUT OF ALL OF THEM." he got so excited, it was cute. i actually wound up not getting the arrows one but he doesnt have to know that.
then we saw matt. we yelled his name but he told us to wait one second. alex was trailing behind him and he was trying to get everyone to move out of the way. we were mad at mattchew :( nano passed by and made a funny face at us. i made one back ahah i love him. then we met ridaw! i didnt get to talk to him at all. he was surrounded. it was really weird honestly. i didnt like it, but at the same time, i loved it. he was so overwhelmed. vinny was like "having fun?" he was like "ohhh yeah." -signs things- -takes pictures- DOM GOT A PICTURE WITH HIM! then i got a picture with him too but i didnt get a hug because he ran :(
thennn we left and saw matt AGAIN. we were like MATT. he, once again, told us to wait. we wuz very angry :| so we gave his card to vinny. then i got a third picture with vinny... this one actually worked... then i showed it to him and he said "I LIKE IT" i was like "ALRIGHT GOOD" meghan later said he has a huge head and looks like a turtle ahhahaha poor vinny.
we were kindof waiting for matt, so zack passed by us and was like "hi!" i was like HI CAN I HAVE A PICTURE. tbh i just wanted a picture with his herpes :| plus i wanted to see if he was going to be mean to me. surprisingly... he wasnt. he was like "sure. lets just get out of the doorway. i hate standing here. i feel awkward." so i was like "alriiiiight." so i took a picture and i sortof compeltely accidentally got a direct shot of his chin. i was laughing so hard and he looked so confused. i told him to wait because i missed :| so i took another picture, this one was better. then i got a hug. i was actually impressed with him, not gonna lie. but ahhah he went to talk to other girls and dom & i were screaming ZACK MERRICK HAS HERPES. i was semi upset he didnt hear us.
THEN SOMEWHERE IN BETWEEN ALL THIS I MET JO. i havent talked to her in legit forever! we talked for a little then we left. we went downsturrz and hung with ameara, shan, and meghan. we were sitting on the floor waiting for alex/danny. i saw danny and yelled his name except i was on the floor so he couldnt see me. i stood up and got him and told him to come over because it was important. the first thing he said was "I'LL GIVE YOU MARTIN JOHNSON'S PHONE FOR A THOUSAND DOLLARS." he was showing it to us and i was like ohsnap iphone! then meghan got him to call callie. he put on a british accent. he got the phone and said "hello. hello. hellllllloooo. hellooooo!.... who's this?.... callie? callie who?... my name is daniel, i sing in a band called theaudition, maybe you've heard of us...." then he went back to his regular voice. "hey whatsup!... well i'm trying to open some really shitty gum..." the gum was in pieces because he broke it so much trying to open it :| then he threw it at the wall. he was still talking to callie and was like "okay this gum sucks." then dom was like "do you want gum?" and his face lit up he was like YES. if you have it. then he said goodbye to callie. i got a picture and hug with him. I WAS SO EXCITED BECAUSE I DIDNT MISS HIM IN THE PICTURE :| he's so tall and compared to him i'm not. i took the picture and dom told me i missed. so i looked at it and was like YESYESYES I GOT IT! danny was like YAY.
blg's set was over, so we were still waiting for gaskarth, but the bouncers told us to move. so we waited in this cute little area with seats and stuff. a mass of people came pouring out. then dom told me she saw matt. i was like whaaaaat. so i turned around and saw him. i called him and finally he came over kasjfkjgd. he was like "heeey. okay did i bail on you guys tonight?" i was like "YES. TWICE." so he was like ":( i'm sorrrrrrry. but wait let me tell you why. the first time alex was sick and needed to get to the bus to lie down, so i was just kind of pushing everyone out of the way. alex's health comes first! then the second time the venue was yelling at me to hurry up." so i was like "k well at least you had a legit excuse." he pouted and was like "i'm sorrrry." then gave me a hug at the awkward-est angle. people cant give me hugs when i'm not expecting them :| ameara was like "good job steph. way to almost push him down the stairs... no wait actually! seriously steph push him down the stairs!" ahahh matt was like "yeah you almost pushed me down the stairs :(" i said "i did?! i didnt mean to." then he saw the guitar case filled with gum and was like "what is that :|" we told him it was gum so he picked one up and then made a face and threw it back in the case like he was disgusted. i was like k. he apparently really thought we were mad at him. he pouted again and told us he was sorry AGAIN. i was like "dude its okay we're really not that mad. we love you!" so i gave him a hug and he was like "GOOD." then matt said "well thank you for knowing my birthday is in two weeks!" and we were like of course! then meghan told him she forgot the mickey cookies. he was like "dude the ones from the disney store?! they are the best cookies ever. someone brought me like five of them once and eating them was THE BEST ten minutes of my life ever." meghan told him that it was her who brings them and he got a few at bamboozle. he's like YES! THAT'S YOU? she was like yuuup. then i got a picture. then ameara got a picture. then he left and we continued to wait for gaskarth.
then we had to leave. apparently my mom was talking to rian and alex? only for a second though, but still, that's weird.
i love mattchew flyzik & brendan walter. this was the best show ever. sakfjkasd <3
but of course bq > urryone :)
SERIOUSLY.
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10:46 am
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the morning light/holiday parade/asteria
so i pick meghan up and we get there and BAM i see theresa. and i'm like "WHOA" -doubletake- "THERESA?!?!" so i ofcourse gave her a hug. we chilled a little and finally went inside. we were kind of pissed because the chick made us like, wait on the side? so we were basically going to get in last even though we came before a shitload of people so we were pissed. but it wound up being fine because we pushed our way through.
we ran to front and center and sat on the stage... i looked for nano and was really pissed because i never found him the whole night :( i dont even think he was there. meghan came up with this game so that everytime i'm trying to find him i just scream "NANO" and he'll be like "POLO" so uh if i found him i was going to tell him that... but i never found him and i legit cried.
uh yeah the singer of the first band, medicated kisses, was a girl. she like put her hand on my head and was like "are you okay" i was like :||||||||||||||||||||||| yes. it was an extremely awkward moment. the entire set was just awkwarrrd.
then the next band, 5 star fallout, was from new zealand. i was like :ooo. yah so half way during the set the singer comes down to like, the floor, and just pulls meghan into a big hug and i was all LOL. i found it funny :|
thenthenthen asteria came on. terrance is adorable and reminds me a little of gaskarth/john o'callaghan from the maine. theyre really good :)
then holiday parade. omg andy is really really adorable. i just wanted to give him a hug. they're pretty awesome live. every time i looked over at theresa she was just smiling so insanely haha i love her <3 AND LMAO OKAY. andy from the morning light would like, go behind the stage and start like airdrumming on a drum set that i think mgiht have been nick's? anyway. so i was laughing because he's cute and he was smiling and laughing back.
THEN THE MORNING LIGHT. someone that i was hanging out with that night asked harrison if he'd play katherine again. he's like "nah. its not a good song anyway." i was like "what the hell" because seriously when he played it in july i wanted to cry :( its such a cute song. he was wearing shoes so i got nervous and thought he would play with shoes... because he never does... so i asked him. he laughed and was like "no! i cant!" i was like "okay good because you never do." he smiled. haha he's so cute but he didnt really look as happy as usual. andy just like stands behind harrison so i cant get a good picture of him ever. and omg they all had vitamin water. i almost stole it. i wanted it so bad omg. it was right in front of me and i was like -dies- haha anyway. they played the love! harrison was like "yeah we havent played this in a really long time..." i'm like "JULY." bobby looked at me and was like "actuallllly the last time we played this i think was for connecticut." :) i win. during a safe bet bobby started singing to me awh it was cute. then harrison was like "i cant hear my piano! can you guys hear my piano?!" and we were all like yeaaah. and bobby was all "can you hear harrison's beautiful voice?" and i was like "yeah." and he looks at me and he's like "yeah?" and i'm like "yeah." and again he was like "yeah?!" and i was laughing and i was like "yeah!" I LOVE THIS BOY. hm so a lot of the time they would just stop the instruments and bobby just wouldnt sing... so it'd be the crowd singing. and it was so loud my god. they all had the biggest smiles on their faces, it's seriously the best feeling ever.
so afterwards i got a holiday parade shirt... theresa wanted to get it for me because she loves those boys and was just dying for an excuse to say hi to them. then waited a little and said sup to harrison. dom took a video instead of a picture because she's a retard. he was all "awh did it not take?!"
then saw andyyy from the morning light. i asked him for a picture and he was like "of course! what did you think i wouldnt let you take a picture with me?!" i was like "obviously" we talked to him for a few minutes... he was like begging us to come and chill with them in december with atl. i was like "uh yeah we're working on rides". he was like "YOU HAVE TO COME IT'S GOING TO BE SO MUCH FUN PLEASE COME" i was like "yeah i'm definitely going to try to get up there for it." and hes like "yeah please do!" hahah i never really knew how mcuh he talked. its awesome. got a hug from him and then he hugged meghan and dom. uh yeah then on the way out we said bye to terrance from asteria. it was really really fun.
after last night, the morning light became my second all time low basically. they need to tour together alllllll the time. it'd make my life a lot easier. btw the reason why i include these little annoying one sentence things that happen during/in between sets is because it means a lot to me and i want to remember it all. so i'm not trying to like, gloat. because haha believe me the last thing i have with any band is a friendship. i just want to write it all down to remember it all.
LOL NOW I HAVE A REALLY HOARSE VOICE. YAY.
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07:47 am
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ALLTIMELOW/THEAUDITION/WETHEKINGS/BOYSLIKEGIRLS
okay so! this will be really detailed. except the sets cause that's not really important :|
i get there and hug mah friendz then find out that i have to go to the back of the line, so we did. then i saw emily and we went to find someone to give the presents to [aka matt cause we love him]. we found vinny vegas! we called him and told him we had presents for the boys and hes like "oh just knock on the bus. its up there." and i'm like "...do you really think they'll answer to two teenage girls?" and hes like "yeah! someone should. the door's on the right side." so we knock on the door and eventually gaskarth answers. so we tell him we have presents and emily starts telling him exactly what she bought everyone. hes like "i can just take the bag if you want" but she went on haha. then i give him the stuff and i'm like "sorrrry for acting like stalkers and knocking on the bus. vinny told us to." he's like "oh it's okay! not a problem!" and we got hugs. then we left cause the line was moving :| so while the line was moving i see rian. i couldnt really tell if it was rian cause it was only the back of him. anyway i was like ohmygod i need to meet rian. so i called him and he turned around so i motioned for him to come and he was like "one sec!" so he ran over to zack to give him shit then came back and was trying to find me. i called him again so he came and i got a hug and he's amazing obviously. i got a picture and i was like "sorry if i'm annoying" and hes like "what?! of course not!" dom was like "you made her year." and i was like "yeah i've been waiting so long to meet you" and he said aw and then he laughed and then he had to go. then i saw danny from theaudition and i told him he made me feel short and he's like "YEAH IM REALLY TALL" he's all proud of it too. it was kind of funny cause i legit walked in the venue and the dude was about to check my tickets but for some reason i turned around. so i saw nano walking by so i ran out WITH THE TICKETS and i quickly got a hug :| the security dude was mad but hahahah it was so worth it cause nano is amazing.
anyway. got in, laughed at this mom who was freaking out, saw we the kings, they were amazing. saw theaudition, they were amazing but their set was insane so i died. they played a couple of new songs and OH MY GOD THEY WERE SO SO SO AMAZING. ALL HAIL THEAUDITION :|
k anyway. then my boyyys came on. dude alex came on stage and this teenie in front of me starts legit screaming and hyperventilating. she was fanning herself and she was all OMGOMGOMGOMGMO and screaming at the top of her lungs. i'm like "oh jesus." and i wanted to punch her. but i didnt. anyway. they played dear maria, jasey, six feet, break out, let it roll, coffee shop, the party scene, and hustler. the first three and the last one are in order. anyway. i was pissed cause i wanted to get mah groove awn to poppin champagne, but its all good. got pushed farther to the back but i was legit dying and i could see better and i could actually breathe so it was okay. alex was like "turn the lights on them so i can see their beautiful faces... if i dont fuck at least nine... no, nine and a half of you tonight i will be upset." i was like uh k. then jack's like "I HAVE A SHIRT WITH MY FACE ON IT. and if you buy it i will make out with you... and your dog." alright then alex is all "turn to the person next to you and say 'i want to have sex with you tonight'... unless that person's your mom... then dont have sex with her... cause that's my job." those boys are amaaazing. dude seriously as soon as they were done i left cause i was dying.
uh i have to go watch america's next top model and beauty and the geek lol so i'll finish this tomorrow.
you can hear all about me harassing ridaw and how zachary merrick hates me.
ALRIIIIGHT IM BACK.
k so after the boys' set i met up with dom and bought some of their merch... which, by the way sucks. i felt so bad cause grieco like disappeared so vinny was freaking out cause he was all alone doing merch. then i saw ameara and she got punched in the eye by gaskarth. douchebag. i felt so bad. so i saw rian AND OMG HE WAS TAKING PICTURES WITH PEOPLE. I WAS LIKE YEAAAH GO RIAN. haha anyway. i was like "hey rian there's a girl outside in a pink heart hoodie and she got punched in the eye. so go give her a big hug." and hes like "wait where is she?!" i'm like "outside!" so he of course runs outside and i of course follow him. hahah he gave ameara a hug. he kept asking her if she was okay. i love ridaw more than life. then lol emily's like "why does he wear his socks so high" so i of course yelled at him to come over and i was like "she wants to know why your socks are so high." hahah hes so cute he was laughing and he was like "oh haha i dont know its just how i wear them. we talked for a minute and then we left to find flyzik.
so we go by the tourbuses and find zack talking to girls and showing them his tattoo. so i was like "heeey zack do you know where matt is?" and he was like "inside" i didnt know whether he meant the tourbus or toads so i was like "...inside where?" him: "the venue" me: "uh okay what's he doing?" him: "working" me: "alright zack you're really helpful. do you know where he's working?" him: "inside" me: ":| youre so talkative" him: "yeah. but i gotta to change cause i'm cold." emily: "CAN I COME?!" aha i dont think he heard her though. thankgod. but yeah seriously he always seems annoyed with me. but i still love him so its all good. he was probs like OMGZ WHY ARENT THEY SWOONING OVER ME?! IM SO HOT.
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k. then we left and saw dawson again. we asked him where matt was and hes all "i think he's inside working." so i was all "yeah you and zack both said the same thing." he did that awkward laugh and was like "really?" then we talked for a sec and these random dudes ran up to him and were all AWESOME SET. so i talked to emily and dom for a minute... then i finally found a place to interject in ridaw's amazing conversation with his friends... cause, well, i can. i was like "hey can i have a hug?!" and he was all "of courseee!" so i got mah second ridaw hug of the night.
i never found flyzik cause he's a fgt :( but i met rian dawson. which was basically my goal. and i did it. wooooo i'm so stoked.
AND I DIDNT FIND NANO AGAIN SO HE COULDNT CONVINCE MY PARENTS TO TAKE ME TO THE MORNING LIGHT LAST NIGHT :(
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the morning light/brighten 7.22
okay so uh if this one doesnt save i am going to FLIP, because the blog about the morning light on june 23rd didnt save and i was pissed. really pissed.
so okay we get there at like 5:45 which was later than i wanted to but whatever. dom and i sat with meghan and callie and their friends at a bench and we sat there for a while and talked. those girls are basically insane :) <3
hahah okay so the morning light showed up late and these girls were like for real flipping out when they came out of the van. by "they showed up late" i mean, they showed up at like 6:45 [15 minutes before doors]. two other bands pulled up after them :|
okay so for once dom and i wanted to be on harrison's side so we were like UH, RIGHT SIDE PLEASE. but we were right behind these suuuuper tall girls who i swear were like giants :|
i decided to sit on the speaker because i could see better and it was more comfortable. some guy from a rocket to the moon played acoustic. then a rocket to the moon played and these girls were all LOLZ CAN WE STAND ON STAGE?! and i was all LOLZ YOURE RETARDS. but of course the dude was nice and was all "sureee!" so they were dancing and i laughed at them because i'm a cruel and heartless person. aha then popcorn boy and his friends threw fake money on the stage during the set, it was kinda funny.
then the maine was on! i never listened to them before but they have REALLY amazing stage energy. the trackside stage is waaay to small for all five of those boys. they kept banging into eachother but playing it off as if it was intentional. OKAY SO CREEPY. the singer looked and moved like shaant. he had the shaant combover and did those distinctive moves that shaant does with his arm. if youve ever seen cute live then you probably know what i mean. and the bassist reminded me of zack merrick. and his shoes were so awesome omg i took a picture of them. but yeah i like them a lot :)
then brighten was on <3! i videotaped their whole set except the last two songs. you prob cant hear much anyway because the audio on my camera for real sucks. not even kidding. but brighten's amazing. i love them. i was kind of afraid i was going to get hit with alex's guitar or bass or whatever he plays :| but they had an amaaazing set and they played all the songs i hoped they would.
then the morning light sflkjasf! i was going to ask harrison to move the position of his keyboard buuut he apparently moves it so that hes facing the audience now, which was awesome because we were riiight in front of him aha :) it was kind of annoying because ALL the girls surrounding us were like OMG HARRISONS SO CUTE OMGOMGOMGOM HES ADORABLE. and they told him that. theyre like OMGZ HARRISON YOU'RE ADORABLE I LOVE YOU. and he's like "haha i love you too." because he's a sweet kid obviously! he played a brand new acoustic song for us and thats the first time he ever played it live. we're special and we're their favorite place ever. not just to play, but their favorite place to be. they have no friends anywhere else according to bobby. harrison broke his piano for us. yeahyuuuuh. and they finally played the love <3 i was so excited because i love that song. AND UH OKAY, WANT TO HEAR A REALLY NOT FUNNY JOKE?! halfway into their set, bobby's like, "after this tour we're breaking up." and he was dead serious too. i was like WHAT. WHAT. WHAT. WHAAAAT. they all had solemn faces on for like 30 seconds then harrison starts laughing and he's all "nah we're just making a full length" and i was ready to punch them for making me think theyre breaking up :[
thenthenthen after the show, dom bought a brighten cd. and aha after she bought it we found alex and i got a picture with him and he was all "DO YOU WANT TO BUY OUR CD?" and dom was like "i just bought it!" and he hi-fived her. i was all "i have no money :|" and he hi-fived me and was all "YAY FOR HAVING NO MONEY! i have no money either, thats why i'm asking you guys to buy my cd." and i was like "haha awh if i had money i'd buy five copies." and he was like "AWESOME. NEXT TIME BRING MONEY." then he moved onto the next person. uh then we found harrison! and got a picture with him and i got a hug and omg i never realized this before but dude. his hugs are amazing ahah. he like hugs you and squeezes you really tight then he rubs your back for a second hahah i love him :) then i went up to nano and was all SUPZ CAN I GET A PICTURE? and he was like "why do you want a picture with me?! i'm nobody." and matt from the morning light was like "uh come on, youre nano from myspace!" the picture is pretty funny by the way. we were talking for a couple minutes and nano was all "thanks for coming out by the way. it's awesome to be six hours from home and have kids come out and support this." and matt's like "whaaa?" and nano's like "we were talking about how awesome it is to be so far from home and have kids come out and watch you." then we got into a conversation about that. dont ask me why. then nano was all "hey matt can i have my house keys back so i can actually get in my house?" and i was all "why does he have your house keys :|" and nano's like "because i gave them to him." and matt was like "I BROKE INTO HIS HOUSE LAST NIGHT." then nano said he was leaving and he was like "whats your name?" and i told him and he was like "well stephanie, it was great that you came and come back!" and he gave me a hug :) then he did the same thing with dom. uh in case you couldnt tell, talking to him basically made my summer tbh.
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02:49 am
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ALL TIME LOW ACOUSTIC
this is going to be super long, just so you know.
OKAY SO. i was at my grandpa's funeral, so we left the restaurant at 3, i was hoping for earlier but noooo. so anyway, the normal hour and 15 minute drive home became over 2 hours, and yeah, i was throwing a fit basically. but we got there at 5:45ish aaand ameara called me over so i went and hung with her, then said hi to meghan and gave her a huge hug. theresa was out getting food which she had apparently been doing for the past hour.
so ameara got a spiderman giftbag because she's amazing, so i put the milanos in it i got for alex [IM UNORIGINAL OKAY?] and when he came over, ameara gave it to him. he was like "if you guys stand up i'll give you hugs." so we stood up and got hugs! <3 then theresa came!
i kept trying to figure out whether or not to run over to matt and give him the presents i got him, and i decided against it. BUT, soon after that, he came sorta towards us so i was like "MATT" and he looked and i called him over. so he came over and i gave him the mickey mouse ears and i tell him to put them on cause i want a picture of him with them on. so he puts them on and he's all "i feel like such a dork right now." and he's laughing and being adorable. then i give him a pillow i got him and got a picture with him. then i asked him to sign my shirt and he's all "only if you sign my pillow." so i signed his pillow and he's all "this way i'll remember who gave it to me. i have a huge collection. HAVE YOU SEEN MY COLLECTION?" so yeah that kid is adorable and we talked to him for a few minutes then he had to go inside. and then at one point, ameara looked over to alex and she was like "he's eating one of our lollipops." and she was so happy and it was great.
i don't really have any other good stories about outside, except i accidentally threw out my sharpie so i was screwed and so was one of my birthday presents for dom. but whatev :|
so anyway, we get inside and i was up front and my feet were touching the stage and it was fun stuff.
the consequence was on so i sang to the few songs i know by them. and ahahah omg it was so awkward because the singer loves to make eye contact with people for like 20 seconds straight and IT'S THE MOST AWKWARD THING EVER, I SWEAR. it was kind of creepy but mostly just awkward cause i didn't know what i was supposed to do :|
annnnyway, then promise of redemption aka shane from valencia was on. i didnt know any of the songs because i'm not all that into promise of redemption, but i love valencia. so he played away we go, WHICH IS ONE OF MY FAVORITE SONGS EVER, and i videotaped it and it was amazing hahah.
then the morning light! they played their whole ep and i didn't know a couple songs cause i didnt get the ep yet. buuut harrison is the most adorable thing ever and every five minutes ameara would be all "he is SO cute. i love him" and of couse i agreed. they're an amazing band i love them tons. and i'm seeing them next saturday! <3
after the morning light matt started setting stuff up for atl. he put a tambourine and a penguin and it's was rian's replacement obv. annnyway this girl juliet from automatic loveletter was there and LOL SHE WAS SERIOUSLY AN ASHLEE SIMPSON CLONE. her looks and her voice, that was pretty insane honestly :| she was pretty bad though. thank god she only played three songs.
THEN ALL TIME LOW! they came on five minutes after that other girl left. i videotaped the entire set except for a few minutes here and there. alex had a hat on that looked like a pimp hat, and he completely changed his entire outfit from when we saw him before. THEY PLAYED REMEMBERING SUNDAY. that is one of my favorite atl songs and i was hoping so bad that they would play it and they did! 30 seconds into it alex was like "how do you know this song?!" and we all screamed and during the entire song he had this huge smile on his face and it was just the greatest feeling ever. then after remembering sunday, he was like "you guys are officially my favorite people ever." <3! aaand my battery decided to die during running from lions so i spent basically the whole song changing my battery/getting them out of my pocket :| they also played dear maria and it was amazing obv. then alex was all "this generation likes to talk about getting naked. people need to stop talking, and start doing." and this girl threw her shirt on stage, but apparently alex thought it was a guy? so when he found out who's shirt it was he was all "YOU LIAR. but uh, meet me at the merch table after the show and we can..." and everyone was screaming/laughing so if he said anything else i didnt really hear it. sometime during the set zack took his hoodie-thing off and he was shirtless and i still love his tattoo. but anyway, alex started telling people to take their clothes off, and get ten pieces of clothing on the stage, so of course people did. then alex himself decided to take his shirt off, and he was all "once upon a time i told this guy i would never take my shirt off during a show. well i lied. but you guys are awesome so it's okay." zack didn't do/say much honestly. he just kind of played. during let it roll, alex said "i know i'll never die alone because of all of you" and even though i knew it was coming it almost made me cry honestly, and it takes a whole lot to make me cry. during stay awake alex tried to teach us "you aint the only ones who want to live it up, you aint the only ones" but a lot of people already knew it so we were already singing while he was. he was like "you guys are incredible." and to hear him say that and to see him with a huge smile on his face is just the greatest feeling ever because this kid has done so much for me and it's just the greatest thing ever. so yeah i have the whole thing taped but the sound is kind of bad.
after the show i got the morning light merch/ep and met harrison! this kid is adorable. he asked us if we were going to be there saturday and we said yes. dom's like "it's my birthday!" and he's like "REALLY?! we'll have to sing happy birthday to you then!" so needless to say, dom was extremely happy and i am just in love with harrison so i was happy because i met him :| then i got the consequence merch/ep and met the singer because he was behind the merch. i think his name is pj? ANYWAY. i was going to go and talk to a couple other guys from the consequence because they looked bored, but by the time i was done getting merch, one was surrounded by about 5 girls, and the other disppeared. THEN we saw zack! so i got a picture/hug from him and told him to be more careful of his shoes because people were planning on stealing them [aka me, ameara, and theresa] and he was so confused and i tried to explain but then i just kind of gave up :| then i met shaaaane and got a picture and yeah. all the good atl merch was gone so i got nothing except the ep which i had yet to buy :| after that we waited to talk to alex cause he was surrounded by a ton of people. so okay. i met/got a picture with alex and i was like "AND ALSO. she [dom] wants to take a picture with you too but she's kind of shy and she always makes people in bands feel bad because she never takes pictures with them." and he was like "oh it's okay you dont have to take a picture if you dont want to" and i was all "dude you are not helping me." he's like "sorry :|" then we left the venue and went home.
BEST SHOW EVER WITH SOME OF THE GREATEST PEOPLE EVER! <3
those five all time low boys mean more to me than anything.
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11:36 am
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truths
1. if i say i'm "fine" or "okay" i'm pretty much always lying
2. i live for those five boys, honestly.
3. alex and i love to discuss how mean we are. but that's what we do, and that's what i am, mean.
4. everyone i know has an issue with conflict, so generally i just avoid any conflict of any type.
5. never try and stop me from going to see all time low
6. i get annoyed/pissed off/mad/sad/whatever other emotion you can think of, very easily
7. i love writing but i hate showing people what i write
8. i hate public speaking/presenting because i'm afraid i'll get laughed at if i screw up
9. a while ago i got made fun of for an entire year about one thing over and over that was a touchy subject, and still is, and that honestly scarred me for life.
10. before that, i was an outgoing kid who wasn't afraid to do anything. after that, i was afraid to do everything. my personality was just... different.
11. it's hard to get me to open up to people and invest my trust in them
12. i have lost all my best friends to one thing or another
13. i eat more crap than you can imagine and i'm surprised i'm not 500 pounds
14. i will die at age 30 because of the food i eat
15. i don't care
16. on june 15th i will meet three of my favorite boys ever and hang with three of my really good friends. i'm holding on for that
17. i still wish on 11:11 even though i know it doesn't work
18. i am extremely weak and i give up extremely easily
19. i think that jack marin and blake lewis are two of the most adorable and sweetest kids ever
20. i cried for days after bamboozle because it was basically my one chance to meet christopher gutierrez and i didn't meet him
21. i really hate guitar/guitar class
22. i don't like this town or the people in it
23. i'm getting more fed up with school than i ever thought i would
24. honestly i get depressed after coming on the computer and talking to some of my friends, but i love them more than anything.
25. i overanalyze absolutely everything
26. i remember things that you think i don't remember
27. i miss being eight years old
28. i have never been to a fall out boy show. take me to one and i swear i will worship you
29. i hate pete wentz. i just hate him. i don't really think that's changing anytime soon.
30. i walked outside in 97 degree weather wearing a hoodie basically every day last week
31. i plan to continue to do so all summer unless it's absolutely unbearable
32. usually i get looked at funny when i wear my hoodie that says 'glamour kills' all over it 35983 times and i love it
33. if she tells me one more time how hot alex gaskarth is i swear to god i will punch her in the face
34. heroes is an amazing tv show. watch it.
35. supernatural is an amazing tv show. watch it.
36. if i see sanjaya malakar walking down the street i will go up to him and tell him how much he sucks. or something to that effect.
37. the number 37 is my favorite number
38. i was jealous of morgan's 69 on her science quiz the other day
39. i don't like sports. don't ask me why i play them unless you want a full on rant
40. i will never get up to 100 truths
41. i love chewing gum
42. you will hardly ever see me without my ipod
43. most of the problems i have/think i have come from myself and my own insecurity
44. i hate the fact that drummers are completely overlooked. example: rian dawson is one of the most amazing kids ever so why don't you start paying attention to the dude.
45. i saw this one guy over and over during bamboozle and i kept trying to figure out what band he was in but i still don't know and it's still bothering me
46. i am amused extremely easily
47. how much people have done at age 13 reaaaally saddens me
48. i hope this kid knows he's going nowhere.
49. i want someone who's shoulder i can cry on
50. i dont like meeting new people
51. i can't draw if my life depended on it
52. i say 'whatevs' too much
53. i have been brainwashed by a mexican
54. canadians suck but my best friend is a canadian
55. i never use livejournal but i should
56. i honestly want to rip you apart, emotionally and physically, for all that you put me through
57. i'm worried about you. you're an incredible girl and you dont deserve to put up with what you put up with and i'm worried
58. i don't always know what to say to people to make them feel better, but i try
59. pancakes are amazing
60. i don't like my religion nor do i believe in much of it
61. i need to let go of everything and move on but i can't
62. i feel like i've changed a lot in the past year or so
63. "i figured it out, i'm not the person that i used to be"
64. i cried with jordin sparks when she won american idol. don't ask me why, because i actually like blake better, but i did
65. i hate my room and i wish i could re-decorate it
66. how the hell people sit through three hour baseball games is beyond me
67. i like myself on the internet better than in real life
68. i need to learn to think before i speak. i really do.
69. i thought she would be there for me forever. i turn around and she's gone.
70. it bothers me how expensive abercrombie's and hollister's clothes are. how can anyone afford that?
71. i want to rip my hair out when i see someone write "your amazing" IT'S YOU'RE, PEOPLE. IT'S A CONTRACTION. THIS IS SECOND GRADE SHIT I'M TALKING HERE
72. i hate when people spell things wrong or use incorrect grammar
73. i love the rain and hate the sunshine. i guess i'm just a negative person?
74. i almost never use my cell phone or house phone
75. that's because no one ever calls me on it/i have no one's number.
76. i really hate sitting at home every single weekend. i really hate it. i've come to terms with the fact that that's not changing.
77. i don't understand the difference between 'who' and 'whom'
78. at this point in time i've shut myself off and i don't really want to talk to anyone.
79. halloween was pretty stupid this year and trickortreating was not fun
80. i am losing everyone
81. i am an idiot
82. i can't live in the here and now. i just can't. i'm always thinking about the future.
83. i wish jamisonparker would get back together so i could see them live.
84. the band say anything really sucks
85. THERE IS A MOTH FLYING AROUND THIS ROOM. KILL IT OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGGOM KILL IT.
86. no i am not "emo" and no i do not cut. and no thats not funny. it's getting old, guys. real old.
87. kids at school who dont try kind of bother me. esp because they're probably really smart they just. don't. care.
88. whenever i see a really ugly person i think "i really hate how i look but thank god i don't look like that" and i feel bad
89. the reason why i love stupid cliche love story movies is because i wish that girl was me.
90. for once, i want to be the girl envied instead of the envying girl
91. i may sound like i brag, esp after going to a show, but i'm not. i'm just seriously so excited about it that i tell everyone i can
92. i get trapped in memories sometimes. i keep holding onto what used to be, and pay no attention to what is.
93. i hate dancing and i never do it.
94. i have no sympathy for some, and unlimited sympathy for others
95. don't catch me on a bad day unless you're okay with getting yelled at.
96. i will make you feel like shit, sometimes intentionally, sometimes completely unintentionally
97. i can't stand to go through anything alone. i try and make as many people as possible feel the pain i feel
98. if i dont want to talk to you right now, i don't want to talk to you right now. don't try and force me to talk because it will end bad, trust me
99. i honestly can't believe that i did that.
100. this is kind of more of a rant, but do i care? no. to the kids that get free and reduced lunch: WHY DO YOU WALK INTO SCHOOL WEARING JERSEYS/BAPE HOODIES/REALLY EXPENSIVE CLOTHING?! why don't you spend some of that money on, hm, i don't know, FOOD?!
101. i am going to re-read this to make sure that what i wrote down is okay.
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shows are fun.
last night i saw all time low, cute is what we aim for, this providence, the morning light, brighten, the consequence
so i get there like 5 minutes before doors open and i'm going insane trying to find ameara and shan.
it was so cold outside omg.
but i found them and talked to them in line a little bit.. then we went inside.
that place is fucking tiny. like seriously it's super small. which is good.
the consequence was playing first.
and we didnt know them.
we see alex from all time low [kind of in the crowd, which was weird], and i'm like "omfg alex."
so i went over and asked him for a picture.
and he decided to try and be all ghetto and shit, and i seriously dont know if he knows that he's white.
thennn he started dancing.
yeah it was kind of awkward.
but it was fucking hysterical.
and he was just kind of watching the band and so were we.
then the morning light was on.
they were pretty good :)
then brighten was on.
also a good band.
but by this point i just kind of wanted to see this providence :|
then this providence was on.
hahha omg dan looks so ridic without a guitar, seriously.
he reminded me of adam lazzara.
but uhm. they're good live.
we were up close for them.
security kept telling us to move back because apparently we were on the stage.
dan is australian and that is so obvious :|
THEN! all time low ommmmmmg.
the best band i've ever seen live, and some of the best guys ever.
apparently the CD player at trackside broke, they were gonna put on some rap music.. and uhm. god only knows what ATL was gonna do :|
apparently jack thinks that their music is rap music.
that dude is insane.
during running from lions alex added bootylicious in like always.
then jack was calling us connecticutians.
and alex decided to change it to connectipussy.
then we were too close to the stage again.
so alex is like "okay. apparently you guys are getting too crazy. so i need everyone to take a giant step back.." people start taking steps back "no no no, not now, you'll die. it has to be all together. 1, 2, 3." everyone steps back. "that was fucking pathetic. let's do it again."
and then alex fell.
he was singing and playing guitar and like going into the crowd, and he fell.
i was lmfao so hard. and he's like "I'M OKAY. NO ONE WORRY, I'M OKAY."
and morgan got a picture of him doing a growly face.
hahahahah omg best thing ever.
then we had to choose between girl's a straight up hustler and jasey rae by a show of applause.
so alex goes "girl's a straight up hustler" and people cheer. then "jasey rae." and people cheer again. "dude, that was basically same. let's try it again." so we do it again. "it was the same again. come on guys." lol we suck.
but they played girl's a straight up hustler.
i was 2nd/3rd row for their set.
then cute came on.
halfway into their set i was ready to pass out.
everyone. is. in. love. with. that. band.
the only time i was so squished is during cute.
i couldnt move at all.
but i was like 4th row so it was all worth it.
and i was on jack's side, so i took 34825 pictures of him.
uh they were talking about jack shaving his hair.. if i wasnt sitting on the side i seriously would have screamed something out because i'm that annoying.
they talked about how tom got his first kiss at a show.
then they started talking about his girlfriend.
then jeff was talking about how she was in 5th grade class and he had a crush on her and asked her out or something.
and shaant's like "i'm single." and jesus christ. the screams that i heard were fucking ridiculous.
and the number of "i love you shaant!"s were also fucking ridiculous.
i wonder if people are blind and cant see that he looks like a duck.
i went out to get water, so by the.. place where they were selling drinks, alex from all time low was there. and he was like "HI." all energetic and shit. the person selling the drinks was like "look everyone, you can touch him." and i was like wtf she's weird.
so they ran out of water.
i was about to die.
they had energy drinks and soda, which i dont drink... but i got a disgusting energy drink anyway
i saw alex [my friend, not from atl] a few times. yayay that was fun.
then! i called my mom because i didnt feel well.. she was already there, big surprise :|
alex played jasey rae acoustic and i missed it.
someone better have youtubed that shit.
so first i saw tom from cute and got a picture.
then i saw jack from cute and we got a picture. and i told him to stop wearing makeup. and he refused. and i argued. and he refused. and dom told me i was mean. jack is probs the most adorable kid ever. just sayin. cause you should all know this.
then i saw jack from all time low and got a picture with him and he signed my jeans.
and i got alex from all time low to sign my jeans because i didnt before.
then i saw zack from all time low and got a picture with him and he signed my jeans. dom is too afraid to take pictures even though zack wanted her to. haha he was like "come onnn just take a picture!" she was like nooo i'm good.
then i met jeff. and got a picture with him. and called danica but she wasnt home
yeah that's my night!
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